Ancient History/Future Hearts

Relationships

i got back to the venue and slammed the door behind my back. Maxx was sitting on the floor talking to Cody. i think he was waiting for me because as soon as he spotted me he got up. 

"so?" he asked hopeful. 

"so?! are you kidding me Maxx?!" i wasn't in the mood for talking like a civilized person. i felt anger invading my whole body and i started shaking a bit.

he gave me a quizzical look, and i took it as a chance to go on with my rant.

"what the hell were you thinking?! you chose the worse moment ever to get rid of her. you are so heartless i..." i let out an ironic laugh "i didn't think you were like this Maxx. and by the way, where were you when she needed you? when i needed you? you left me alone in this, you abandoned me and i didn't know what to do! she's gone now, God knows where"

"woo, hold on a second right there! i thought you said 'let me deal with this, i can do it'" he was trying to imitate a girly voice.

"guys, let's calm down..." Cody was trying to reconcile us but i just ignored him.

"well you know what, it would have been kind of you to just check everything was going okay! it feels like you don't care at all! you made this mess"

"maybe you guys should go out and talk about it-" 

"stay out of this Cody. she's causing a drama because Brie is her friend and she obviously chose her over me! you never liked the idea of the two us of us plitting up did you?! you're playing God i'm telling you!" Maxx was raising his voice and i didn't like it one bit. he had never talked to me like that.

"you know what do whatever you want, i don't care anymore. screw you" i said, turning my back to the boys and heading outside once again.

the cold air made my shiver. the temperature had gone down really fast. i tried to protect myself with my hoodie, covering my mouth and nose with it. i sat down next to our bus. what now?

All Time Low had started their set and i could hear people screaming and singing along to their songs. i sighed. i hated fighting with Maxx. it didn't happen often and when it did i instantly felt bad. 

i heard the door opening and someone got out. they walked towards me.

"hey" Austin sat down and put a hand on my shoulder "are you okay?"

i shook my head "i'm not. i hate falling out with Maxx. and i'm worried for Brie. she said she doesn't want to talk to me anymore" i said, almost whispering. i felt so numb i didn't even feel like crying. he hugged me tight.

"i know. but everything's going to be okay i promise you. you just need to give them time. they'll sort things out"

i nodded. i didn't believe him but i was too tired to argue on that. 

we stayed in silence for some time. i was the one to break it, when a question formed inside my mind and it escaped my mouth without me even realizing.

"why do you think Maxx broke up with her"

he shrugged "Nicky. these things are complicated. but i'll tell you what i think, and i'm sure i'm not the only one to think this way. we are a band now. we tour a lot. we are always away from home. it's not easy to keep a relationship going. things like this will always happen. they are meant to happen. as harsh as it sounds, we are not supposed to have serious relationships"

i felt my heart beating faster as i remembered Dan's words. he had told me the same thing just before we left for tour. i started thinking that maybe he was right. but what about me and Cody? will he dump me at some point? was i meant to end up with my heart broken? 

Austin got up and reached out to help me do the same.

"c'mon. let's get on the bus, maybe play some cards or listen to some music. the best thing you can do now it to free your mind for the moment and not overthink. and i can help with that" he smiled.

the next morning i woke up to a thunder shaking the glass of my window. i jumped and my eyes sprang open. i put my head under the pillow. i mubled something - not sure what myself. i stayed like that for a couple of minutes, then grabbed my phone. it was 7.38. too damn early. 

the rain outside hit my window repeatedly and it made it impossible to see what was going on outside. i stayed in bed for a bit, staring at the ceiling. i let my thoughts free - stupid idea i know. i started thinking about me and Cody. what would be of the two of us? i needed to talk to somebody about it. 

i would normally have picked Maxx but obviously that couldn't happen that day. i got out of my bunk and headed towards the bottom one on the left.

"Austin? you awake?" i whispered, gently touching his shoulder.

"no?" he mumbled.

"Austin i need to talk to you. can we go to the back of the bus? it's pretty important"

"like... now?" he muttered.

"please?"

"alright alright i'm getting up" and so he did.

we went to the back lounge and i closed the sliding door behind me. 

"so. what's up?" he yawned.

i was wringing my hands. "you remember what you told me yesterday? about... relationships?"

he nodded and i continued "well, you must have noticed me and Cody are... you know... kind of together now?"

he nodded again but didn't say a word. i didn't know how to go on.

"do you think like... ah damn it" i sighed. "do you think we are not meant to be?" 

he didn't answer and stared at me for a bit. "Look Nicky i don't want to crush your dreams. i want you to be happy. i'm just saying, think about it carefully"

i kept torturing my hands, who were now completely white cause i was squeezing them so hard. 

"so what do you think i should do?"

"end the whole thing and break up with him"

Guys we're not too far away from the end of the story. sad i know. what do you think of it until now? do you like it? i am already thinking of a sequel but i'l let you know in the future. thanks for reading and listen to Ancient History today (because why not) that's your assignment. have and awesome day, love you <3