Random One-Shots

Thoughts from places- backyard edition

So here I am. Sitting in a chair in my backyard with the sun shining down on me reflecting beautifully on my pool. It's a beautiful day, and we all know it's going to be hot. Nights in White satin but the moody blues is playing and I'm trying to focus on something.

Yesterday was my last day of middle school. Today I promote to 9th grade. And I don't know what it is, but I feel very empty. Like something is ending, and I have no control over it. It's not that I'm not ready. I'm ready for it, but... It's the end of an era, the end of something that I lived. I had some of my best days in the place I called my second home. From friends to bad days. And it's all so completely and utterly important. I loved all those moments. I've grown from the same as everyone else to who I am. I figured out some things about myself and gotten more confused about other things. I might not know anything about anything important, but I have found people I love and that are going to have to go away. I've fallen in love and hated people in the stupid anarchy that is middle school, and now it's over. High school are the best years of your life they say. They tell you that you learn the most important things in high school, but right now I wish I could freeze this moment and take it slower. To remember it for exactly the way it is and never forget it. It's a beautiful day, but maybe an even better life. And right now I feel kind of infinite. Now I kind of understand what Charlie meant. Maybe it's not happiness, but it's not sadness either. It's just being content and living in  the moment. Maybe it's remembering all the things you wish to forget but being okay with that. It's okay, and I'm happy with that. Today I will be a high schooler and perhaps my real life will start, but I don't ever want to forget what it feels like right now.