A Typical Teen Love Story

Chapter 9: Slow Dancing

When we made it out, Javier walked over to where Alex was. I looked to where my friends were, and they did notice Josh dancing with Jennica and then his storming out pissed off.

I quickly walked out of the gym and my friends understood what was going on. I looked in the MPR, but Josh wasn't sitting inside.

I looked outside and he was sitting with his head in his arms on the bench in the circle. I was scared to approach him. I didn't even know what I was going to say to him. I was just caught up in the moment; I didn't have time to plan how I would approach things. I walked slowly, and when I was less than a meter away, he looked up at me.

"Why the hell are you doing this to me Megan?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you acting so bi-polar about everything?"

"ME? BI-POLAR?"

"Yeah, you fricken get pissed off at me for dancing with some girl at the foam party, then you cry about us breaking up, then you act like your my girlfriend during the fricken lockdown, then you act pissed and sad when finding out about the bet, then you act emotionless when I explain everything to you, and now you act like you don't give a fuck about us anymore and dance with that stupid Mexican fag! Stop being a fucking slut and stop being a hypocrite!"

I was extremely offended and hurt that he would judge me in that way. I replied back, just as pissed off.

"For the record, I got pissed off at you for not trusting me and going behind my back about the whole foam party! Second off, I was emotional; obviously I would cry about breaking up, I'm not a heartless vampire! Thirdly, I was stuck in a closet with you and William, would you rather me fall asleep on Will, or you? Which would piss you off more Josh??? Fourthly, I was emotionless, or so you think, because I was in a rush to get back to school and I didn't know what to say. If you would like to know, I cried the whole way back to Carney, but the rain covered pretty well for me! And Lastly, JAVIER asked me to dance, I said yes because it didn't seem as if I was getting any offers! Plus he was really cute, and he actually had interest in me! Oh, and Javier and I were just dancing, until you started grinding with Jennica! So don't go judging others because of the things they do! Judge them on the person they are. You are so judgemental it pisses me off. You're the one causing all the problems here, it isn't me! Take another look at the mirror before you assume things, because you may just be the cause to everything! Yenno, you're not the only one who's so effing confused! You confuse the heck out of me! Your non-caring attitude breaks my heart. It makes me feel as if you've acted out the last 8 months. Yenno, you not showing your emotions pissed me off so much because I don't even know if you really loved me. I can't tell if you're hurting too, so it makes me feel so stupid for crying over something you never really cared about!"

"Well! I'm SORRY for being me!" he yelled in anger.

I started to walk away from Josh. He pissed me off so much. He assumed too much and didn't really think things through, yet he was a really smart kid. That's what I didn't really get from him. He confused the hell out of me.

Just as I walked under the cover, Josh called out to me.

"Megan! Don't go!"

I stopped and turned to him. He walked over towards me and encased me in a huge hug.

"Megan! I love you so much. I know I told you that I really did grow to like you, I was wrong. I grew to love you and I am just realizing this now! Seeing you with another guy pissed me off and it makes me do things I don't think I would ever do. Seeing you hurt and crying, hurts me twice as much because I feel like a jerk to know that I've hurt you. Knowing that we're over bugs me so much, but there isn't anything I can do about it because I've hurt you so much. I want to convey emotion, but I don't want you to see me weak. I really do care that we're over and I still can't wrap my mind around it. You make me so crazy that without the craziness in my life, it feels like a pit of nothingness. I know it may seem as if I can deal, but on the inside I'm dying. All throughout the day, I've wanted to hug you, kiss you on the cheek or forehead, whisper in your ear that I love you, and just show you how much I care. I know the reasons I got to know you were wrong, but I really did fall in love with you Megan. I fell in love with your smile, your laugh, your kindness, your tears, your everything! I can't go on living without you. It's been just over a day since I screwed up our relationship and you found out. I regret every single moment and I know that I should have assumed that you were going to let me go, but I had doubts. I shouldn't have doubted, but I did and I'm sorry. I had to go to the club, because Dylan was bugging me about it and he told me that I would lose the bet if I didn't go. Who'd figure I'd lose the bet either way. I never intended to dance with that girl, but Dylan pretty much threw her to me. And with Jennica, just seeing you with that guy made me so mad. I'm sorry for calling you a hypocrite and a slut. It was just my anger talking and I really want to take it all back. You're right about everything and I'm so sorry!"