Divergent high

Chapter 15

A/n @MyraVang Thank you so much for all the comments and great feedback. :D ok on with the story.

FOURS POV

when I told tris that I hated her she started crying. sobbing really. I wondered why and I kinda felt bad but I didn't understand why. We HATE each other. But still for some reason my head keeps telling me to forgive her. I just tell myself to shut up and then go to bed.

I'm about to fall asleep when I feel a hand squeeze mine so I open my eyes and see tris. I'm about to say something smart-ass but the pain in her eyes is heartbreaking. She just looks down and runs her thumb across my hand. I watch as silent tears run down her cheeks. I feel sooo bad but I don't know why. So I ask, "What happened."

"What do you mean," she asks wiping her tears.

"What happened that night."

"Your father. He beat you but with a bat this time."

"How did you even know that he did."

"You told me" What? I told her? Why?

"What the hell did I miss? I know that I lost my memory when I got hit but what the hell happened in the past 2 months that I would tell you." she looks at me with a sad look in her eyes.

"You don't remember anything?"

"No. What should I remember."

"Its hard to explain."

"Then make it simple"

"I was your girlfriend."

"oh. So? I've had many, I don't see how you, of all people, are any different." as soon as I say that she lets out a sob. I feel horrible again."Im sorry"

"Why? If you don't remember anything about the last 2 months than you hate me." she says sobbing.

"Look, I do kind of hate you still but for some reason my head tells me that something isn't right. I just don't know why." after I say that we just sit in silence. After about 10 minutes she says something.

"Do you remember the last thing you said to me."

"No."

"You said you loved me." tears start to form in her eyes, "I just wanted you to know that I love you too." she stands up and leaves the room. I try to remember. I want to remember, but I just can't.

two weeks later

TRIS POV

 I had just finished talking to toby, trying to get him to remember for the 20th time this week but he just can't. It hurts that he can't remember. I start crying again. My mom is standing outside the door. I run to her and cry into her shoulder. "He doesn't remember anything." I cry.

"Shhhh. everything is gonna be okay."

"But he forget everything." I say, pulling back. Mom just sighs and shakes her head. I look behind her and see Christina. I run up to her. 

"What the hell happened."

"Look I can't tell you exactly because I promised To-- umm four I wouldn't say anything but he lost his memory."

"That sucks. But he will get better." chris says shrugging.

"Chris, he lost his memory of the past two months. He doesn't remember us."

"Shit," she gives me a hug," don't worry though."

"HOW DO I NOT FUCKING WORRY! THE LOVE OF MY LIFE DOESNT EVEN REMEMBER ME!" I  start crying.

"Hey. I know it doesn't matter. You and four had something really special. It doesn't matter if he remembers you or not because he either will remember or he will just fall for you again." I hug her

"You know just what to say chris."

"Thanks. I'm gonna go. you should talk to four."

"ok bye." she walks away and I head back into fours room. He was sleeping. Just then the doctor comes in and says he can go home tomorrow. I furrow my eyebrows," He ummm doesn't exactly have a home right now."

"Yes, I know. your mother said he would be living with you. I understand he is 18 but he needs the support right now and your parents said they couldn't just do nothing."

"Oh ok." then she walks out. I just sit there and hold toby's hand until he wakes up, about 20 minutes later. I look into his stormy blue eyes and smile.

"I'm sorry," he says.

"For what?"

"Not remembering."

"Well its not like you can do anything about it," I say sadly.

"Yeah," he replies, looking at our hands, "Christina came in here. She told me about us. I really loved you." he says. I let a tear slide down my cheek. Loved is what he said, not love, loved. "I guess I still love you. I mean I should still love you but I just don't remember loving you only hating you."

"Yeah."

"Where am I gonna go?"

"What do you mean."

"the doctor told me what happened. My dad is in jail so where am I gonna go."

"Your staying with us."

"Ok." we sit in silence for a few minutes

"What is the last thing you remember?"

"Going to the beach with zeke."

"ok and that was a week before school right."

"Yeah. I think so."

"Ok. So what do you remember about the actual school year."

"How long have we been going to school?"

"umm 2 weeks."

"Ok all I remember is having all my classes with you."

"is that all?"

"That's all."

I don't know what else to do. I just sit there and stare at him. remembering when I ran into him and noticed how blue they were. I smile.

"What are you smiling about?"

"Well at first we hated each other but then one day I ran into you and I looked up into your eyes. I noticed how blue they were. You stared back and something changed because you were quiet towards me until lunch. At lunch I got bored and went outside then you followed me and we talked about the hell you had caused for me. you tried to apologize but I snapped at you. Then later that day we were running laps and you tried again. I still said know and then you asked me why. I explained all the pain and you hugged me. We ran some more and then stopped again. When we stopped, you kissed me. Do you remember that?"

"Kind of. not quite but I guess."

"You do?"

"Well kinda. its a little fuzzy but yes?" I shoot up from my chair and smile. tears of happiness streaming down my face. I know he doesn't quite remember but still... I don't realize what I'm doing but before I realize it I'm kissing him. I feel the sparks when he kisses back. Wait he's kissing back. I pull back.

"Bea. I remember!"

A/N

I just had to make him remember. It was actually kinda sad too write this. anyways thank you guys so much for reading! please comment.