Lost in Time

n i n e

[taylor's pov]
(gonna be in POV's now)

The sexual tension between Shawn and I is beyond me. I can never seem to keep my eyes off him. I crave the feeling of Shawn's lips on mine, our bodies pressed together. Me deep inside of hi- ok I get carried away, but can you blame me. Shawn is sexy. Very appealing to the eye.

"Do you ever listen to me?" Shawn's voice pulls me from my thoughts. I look up to make eye contact with him. Shawn was just in the shower. Didn't think he was out yet.

"What? Sorry, I zoned out. What did you say?" I try my best to keep my eyes of his naked torso. Shawn was now only in boxers.

"Never mind..." He sighs, turning to walk away from the bed where I sat. I grab Shawn's hips, and pull him back to stay in between my legs. I stand up and wrap my arms around his waist.

"I'm sorry." I kiss the back of Shawn's neck softly, trailing my lips against the smooth skin. Shawn moved his head to the side giving me more access. This is the feeling I've been craving for the last week since Fourth of July.

Shawn turns his body in my arms. He brings his hand up and places it on the back of my neck pulling my lips down to his. It's happening, we're about to kiss for the first time. My heart pounds against my chest as his lips brush against mine.

I take it upon myself to fully connect our lips in a passionate, slow kiss. So, that's what they mean when you kiss some and feel 'fireworks'. More so just a tingle that runs through your veins.

Shawn is first to pull away, leaning his forehead against mine. I smile cheekily, and bite my lip. He pecks my lips once more before fully stepping away from me.

"Damn, you're a good kisser." I comment plopping down on the bed. I relive the previous events between me and Shawn.

"Thanks, I can say the same for you." Shawn says, pulling a pair of sweat pants over his legs. He could just take those off along with the boxers. That'd be a nice sight. Haven't seen his front part yet.

[11:30pm]

I figured I'd stay home for the rest of the night. I've been spending so much time with Shawn I almost completely abandon my family. Well it's not all that serious. Anyways I do live with them, but my mom insisted I eat dinner at home tonight.

Which I did eat dinner with my family. Now I'm just sitting up in my room scrolling down my Instagram feed. I exited from the app and went to messaging. I wanna see Shawn.

Taylor: you up?

It only takes a few seconds for an answer.

Shawn: yes, meet me outside. i wanna take a walk on the beach!

Taylor: okkk

I get up, slipping my phone into my back pocket. My parents where still up down stairs watching a movie. They've always been a little laid back, so I wasn't worried about them saying no to me meeting Shawn.

"Where are you going, son?" My mom asks as I reach the front door.

"I'm gonna take a walk with Shawn." I say.

"Be careful." She says, I nod and open the door stepping out. Shawn was already waiting for me near the path. He instantly squealed and wrapped his arms around my neck, I'm not sure what the excitement was about?

"I missed you." Shawn said, noticing my confused face. I form a 'o' shape with my mouth, "Missed you too." I grab his hand and continue down the path.

I'm not sure what to label us. I just been having a good time with Shawn, and I want to continue with that. There's no need for a label at the moment. Maybe in the future I'll make it completely serious. I don't even know if I'll see him after the summer. It kills me...

"Why do you do that, Taylor? You completely zone out and ignore me." Shawn complains, tugging on my arm a little.

I sigh softly, "Sorry, I was just thinking."

"About?" He asks. I look down at him and smile, "Don't worry about it, love."

Shawn shrugs it off, literally. We make it to the beach and kick our shoes off leaving them at the end of the path. The tide was high. Close to the sand dunes. I'm glad I chose to slip some basketball shorts on before leaving the house.

The walk is quiet. The waves hitting shore making the walk even more calming and relaxing. I'm so obsessed with these walks me and Shawn take. I feel so at home when I'm with him, so at peace, and something even crazier. So in love.

Coming here this summer I didn't expect to find someone, boyfriend material wise, I just was happy to be coming to such a great place. Even if I had to go back to Indiana. I was happy. Shawn has been the biggest part of my happiness lately.

"What do we call this? Some summer fling?" Shawn asks, stopping to look at me. I swing our hands softly, "No, I don't see it as that. I'm not sure what's gonna happen after you leave...We should definitely stay in contact."

"Like a long distant relationship!" His eyes light up at the mention of it, I'm not sure why, but I nod anyways.

"I've always thought those where cute. I seen the videos and stuff of them meeting up, and seeing each other." He says. I smile softly at the bright smile now plastered on his face. I don't think Shawn understands how hard a long distance relationship can be. Maybe a little naive when it comes to this subject.

"Baby, there's more that goes into a long distance relationship." I inform him. Shawn only shrugs and continues down the beach, me following.

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there's a lot of things that never get published when writing a book. like shawn was supposed to leave and taylor stays

[june 1, 2016]
[9:56pm]