Lost in Time

twelve

Everybody said their goodbyes and summer came to an end. Taylor left and went back to Indiana while Shawn and his family settled into their new house in San Diego leaving the beach house behind and all their memories. It was 4 months after summer and Taylor had completely ghosted Shawn a week after summer was over, it hurt Shawn he thought they had something different he thought they'd stay in contact. He thought about the summer every now and again and the things they talked about it wasn't supposed to be a summer fling but I mean what did he expect they were miles apart.

Taylor went back home to Indiana to finish his last year of high school. He still thought about Shawn and he had his reasons for ghosting him it wasn't because he didn't like Shawn or because it was some summer fling he just didn't want to hurt himself. They were so far from each other but the connection was so different so Taylor just ran away from his feelings you could say.

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Taylor's POV
Dec. 10th

I woke up from a deep sleep and checked the clock it read 8:30 I jumped up thinking I was late for school quickly realizing it was a Saturday morning, I laughed at myself and laid back down grabbing my phone and checking it. I scrolled through Instagram liking pictures and laughing at some videos. I stopped when I scrolled past a picture of Shawn and this dude. Was this his boyfriend? They weren't that close in the picture. His pictures haven't popped on my feed in forever of course it'd be the one of him and another boy I was a little jealous. He was still as beautiful thought if not even more then when I left him at the end of the summer. I hearted the picture.

I sighed softly my mind going back to summer break, it was wrong of me to ghost him like that but I was protecting my feelings and I couldn't left myself like that boy anymore then I already did. It was so different with him I wish I would've stayed I know he'd be mine if I did. Something in me wanted to text him and check up on him so bad, but my pride wouldn't let me. What if I don't get a reply back? What if he hates me because of what I did?

I threw my phone to the side and got up to go into the bathroom and brush my teeth before going downstairs my mom was sitting at the bar drinking her coffee and doing something on her computer. She looked up when she heard me open the fridge to grab a bottle of water, "Good morning, Tay." She smiled softly.

"Good morning, mama." I joined her at the bar, "Wow, you didn't make me no breakfast." I shook my head jokingly.

She laughed, "You're grown, you can cook".

I shook my head and laughed getting up to grab a bowl and pour me a bowl of cereal. I joined her back at the bar to eat, Shawn still heavy on my mind I wish I never seen that picture he looked so good my mind wandered to us fucking, ooh what I'd do to feel him around me again. I shook the thoughts away and ate my food.

"So, your dad and me were thinking about going to the beach house for Christmas break. I think we could use a break from the snow. What do you think?" My mom spoke breaking the silence. This must be god there's no way I just seen a picture of Shawn and now my parents want to go back for Christmas break?

"Yes!" I exclaimed.

My mom laughed, "Must want to see your little summer boyfriend. Have y'all even stayed in touch?" I shook my head, "No, it's my fault thought kinda stopped texting back and stuff, but anyways when are we leaving? Because I'm ready!"

"In a week we are going then leaving after New Years." She answered, "Alright bet" I left the kitchen feeling great about the news. Maybe I should text Shawn make things right I really would love to see him when I go, I have to see him.

I got back into my room and laid in my bed grabbing my phone to text Shawn worst thing that could happen is he doesn't reply, but he has every reason not to.

Hey Shawn, im sorry about going ghost on you I know this is probably so random to you and out of the blue, but I'm coming back to California in a week. I really want to see you and talk about some things. If you don't I understand what I did was wrong but please give me a chance to at least explain.

I typed the message a little hesitant to send it but I pressed send anyway the message delivered. I turned my phone off and waited for a reply while I found something to watch on Netflix.

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