Be My Escape (boyxboy) [ON HOLD]

Chapter Twelve

I know, I'm on a FUCKING ROLL (excuse my language...eh, its not like you people havent heard a curse word before). I mean, I JUST updated this a couple days ago, and now here I am, updating once again along with my other story. I know, I'm so FUCKING AMAZING...Yup I like the word fuck. Get fucking used to it you fucking fuck...<3

Anyways, I'm continuing with the poll still, so if you havent voted yet, please do so. THEN PHASE 2 WILL COMMENCE. If you dont know what the hell I'm talking about, you'll find out at the bottom. Its a pretty simple concept.

Okay, I'll stop talking now, since I'm pretty sure no one reads these. I dont blame you, when a story is updated, I just look at the authors note like "fuck that" and just read the chapter. But if you ARE reading this, use the word bubbles in a comment :D

Jenns POV (Mixin it up):

There was complete silence. You couldnt hear anything, not even us breathing. Logan was leaning forwards, looking at us with an excited look on his face, waiting for our reactions. Personally, I just wanted to slap some sense into him, but I have a feeling that could end badly. 

I whipped my head over to look at Devin, but I almost wish I didnt. He had the most devastated expression on his face. The beaming smile was gone, along with the light in his eyes and the recent glow he had been sporting since he had gotten back from whatever he did with Logan. 

It was no secret that Devin had a small crush on Logan; I bet he didnt even realize it himself yet. And I was so sure that Logan had felt the same. 

Devins POV:

I felt my bottom lip tremble with the need to let out a sob. I dont know why this all hurt so much, but it felt like my insides were being ripped out. I wanted nothing more than to burst into tears and run away to my room, but I couldnt bring myself to do it. Logan was looking at us all happily, and I didnt want to be the one to ruin his mood. 

So even though it tore me up inside, I plastered on a smile. "Thats great! Will I get to meet her?"

He beamed, causing me to wince inside. "Of course! You're my brother; You've got to meet her!"

I remember how before when he called me his brother, I loved it. But now it was addiing acid to my wounds. I smiled shakily regardless, and nodded. "Great! Um, I have some homework to catch up on, so I guess I'll just go upstairs to do that now," I forced yet another grin on my face, then got up to go upstairs. 

The second my back was turned from them, I let the tears leak freely from my eyes silently as I walked up the stairs with a heavy heart. 

I threw my bedroom door open, not wasting any time before quickly shutting and locking the door behind me before collapsing on my bed in a fit on tears. I had to bury my head in my pillow in order to quiet the sobs that I couldnt help but escape my mouth. I was choking on my own breath, and the tears were clouding my vision. I dont know why this hurts so much. All I knew was that even after everything my parents had done to me, nothing they did compares to the pain I feel now. 

Back to Jenns POV:

I watched as Devin gave us a shattered smile, and walked upstairs to do some 'homework'. But I didnt miss how his shoulders were shaking slightly as he left. I looked towards Michael, noticing he was watching Devin with pitied eyes as well. He looked at me, seeming just as concerned as myself. We all knew Devin was very unstable because of some past issues. 

But when we turned back to Logan, he was too busy texting on his phone in order to see the broken state Devin was currently in. I desperatly wanted to hit him for doing this to the poor guy, but Devin himself probably doesnt even know why he's so upset.