A Touch of Black

chapter 11 - Can You Please Say Something?

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His lips were so soft, I don't know why but I had expected them to be rough. All the times that I had spent daydreaming of kissing him, wishing that I could, didn't even do it justice. The real thing was WAY better. I wrapped my arms around his neck eagerly, my hands getting lost in his shaggy, black hair. I felt as he put his arms tightly around my waist, trying to pull me closer to him. Our lips moved in time with each others, both of us getting lost in the kiss.

But of course, it had to end. I heard someone clear their throat, obviously feeling uncomfortable. Honestly I had forgotten that we even had an audience. Reluctantly I pulled away, detangling my hands from his hair. I heard him groan as I pulled out of his grasp, standing straight I put my fingers to my lips, I could still feel the kiss. I can't believe I just did that.

I looked down and saw him staring at me, I smiled but looked away embarrassed, when I looked back he had a confused expression on his face. "Umm don't get me wrong, that was amazing and all but...who are you?"

I felt my heart break into a million tiny pieces.

My eyes immediately filled with tears as I realized that he didn't remember me. One of my worst fears has just been confirmed, Sirius Black, my best friend in the whole entire world, doesn't know who I am. I turned to run out of the room, but was stopped when someone grabbed my hand and  pulled me back. All of a sudden I was being crushed against someones chest. Sirius. I couldn't help as the sobs escaped my lips.

"Shh Ella-Bella, I was only joking! Shh please stop crying, I didn't mean any harm." He cooed as he stroked my hair. He shifted in his bed so that I was lying beside him. I pressed myself tightly to his chest "You stupid idiot!" I sobbed,"don't scare me like that!" He chuckled slightly causing his chest, and because I was lying on him, me to shake. I hit him hard in the chest, "you jerk." "I know, I know, I was just trying to lighten the mood. That's all!" he said, still chuckling. I lifted my head to look at his face, "and you thought that scaring me to death would be the best way to do that?" "Um...maybe?"

I couldn't help the giggle that escaped through my lips, I buried my head back into his chest, enjoying the warmth radiating from his body. "I missed you Siri." He wrapped his arms back around me and kissed my forehead, "I know Ella-Bella, I know."
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Sirius' injuries were healing quickly now. His cuts and scrapes closing up and fading away, not even leaving a scar. The bones he had broken were healing properly, all of it thanks to Madam Pomfrey. She had said that because of his amazing progress, he was allowed to leave the hospital wing and go back to everyday life. Sirius was so happy to get out, until he remembered that he would now have to attend all of his classes again.

Things had all gotten back to normal, Sirius and the Marauders went back to joking and pranking, and I went back to living life outside of the hospital. Turns out I hadn't missed much in any of my classes, the extra studying I was able to do kept me caught up. Sirius on the other hand wasn't so lucky. But me being the good friend that I am, offered to help him catch up.
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"No Sirius, that's NOT a bezoar! If you eat THAT you'll die, it's an extremely poisonous plant called aconite, hence it's other name, wolfsbane!" I sighed in frustration as I once again had to correct him. We had been going over magical ingredients for over an hour, and he was still getting it wrong. "You're going to end up poisoning someone." He glanced up at me sheepishly, "I'm sorry Ella, but I just can't concentrate, there's something else on my mind."

I looked up at him worriedly, I hope he wasn't going to bring up what happened between the two of us. I know we should talk about it...but I was afraid of what he would say. "Listen Ella, I want to know-" "About Re'em Blood? Well Re'em is a type of golden ox, and when you drink it's blood, you gain immense power." I jumped in before he could finish his sentence. He looked rather dissappointed but thankfully didn't press the matter. I know I shouldn't have done it, but I just wasn't ready to talk about it yet.

The rest of the night was spent awkwardly trying to teach Sirius about magical plants and herbs. Once or twice I would catch him staring at me with a weird expression on his face, but when he saw me looking he would quickly look down and pretend to scribble things on his parchment.
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"I just don't know what to do Lily, it's just so awkward now." I told Lily as we sat on our beds later that night. She gave me a sympathetic look before answering, "Well, maybe you should have let him say what he wanted to. You never know, maybe he feels the same way about you." "What way!" I asked, shocked that she might have figured it out. She just gave me an 'are you serious' look, "Give it up Ella, the whole school knows your in love with Sirius, except for Sirius." My eyes widened, "Oh god no, everyone!" She nodded her head, grinning widely. I covered my face with my hands, absolutely mortified.

I hadn't realized she'd moved until I felt her arm go around my shoulders in a comforting way. "Look Ella, you need to talk with him. If you don't, things will never get better." I looked up at her face before sighing, "Ya, I guess you're probably right."

So all that night I spent tossing and turning in my bed, trying to think of what to say to him. I couldn't just go up to him and be all like "Hey Sirius, about that amazing kiss, ya well I'm completely in love with you, and I'de be crushed if you didn't love me too" ya...that'd go well.
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I woke up the next morning after having only about three hours of sleep, thanks to all of my worrying. I sluggishly climbed out of bed, dragging my feet to the bathroom to get ready. Today was going to be even more awkward than yesterday, seeing as me and Sirius sat beside each other in every class.

When I made it down to the Great Hall for breakfast, I slumped down into my spot and stared at my plate. Sirius didn't put his arm around me like usual. I could feel everyone's gaze on us, watching us. I lifted my head and saw that I was right. I quickly glanced at Sirius and saw that he was looking the other way, off down the Gryffindor table. I quickly snatched a muffin and ran out of the hall.

I ran to our first class and sat at my desk waiting for class to begin. Slowly people started to file in, and the lesson began. The day dragged on longer than usual. It was very awkward between me and Sirius, occasionally our hands would brush together but he would quickly pull away, as if I had a disease or something. That made my heart ache painfully in my chest. The rest of the classes followed in the same sort of fashion.

As soon as the day was over I ran as quickly as I could out of the classroom.
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I made it to a dark corridor before the tears finally came. I don't know why I was crying, but I just couldn't stop. I missed him, I missed how we used to be. I barely heard the sounds of footsteps coming up behind me. I didn't turn around, just hoped that they would keep walking. Sadly I wasn't so lucky.

"Ella?" my heart started beating rapidly when he said my name. "Ella please turn around" he put his hand on my shoulder and spun me around to face him. He looked shocked when he saw my tear soaked face. He lifted his hand up and gently brushed away my tears, rubbing his thumb along my cheek. I closed my eyes, enjoying the feel of his touch. No Ella, you can't like him, what if he doesn't like you back?

"Ella we need to talk." I just nod in reply, unable to talk because of the lump that had formed in my throat.

He took a deep breath, looking nervous, "about that kiss, I really... wanttodoitagain." I almost couldn't understand the last part, because he said it in such a rush. I blinked in surprise, he didn't actually just say that. Right? "Umm...Ella? Are you alright, can you please say something?"

I couldn't say anything, so I didn't. Instead I threw my arms around his neck and crashed my lips to his. Oh my gosh! I'm kissing him, and he's kissing me back! I felt him smile against my lips as he pulled me closer to him. My hands, like before, tangled themselves in his hair. And like before, we were interrupted.
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