A Crazy Complicated Love

Chapter 39

After me and Hannah talked about last night I got up and went to shower. After my shower I got dressed and walked over to the giant windows in my room and looked at the view.

For the first time in a long time I feel okay, I miss him so much though. I decide to go through the messages on my phone.

I clicked on Harrisons name and all his messages came up.

Mia don't go

I can't find you in the airport please don't go

What gate are you at?

Mia please check your phone

Mia I'm here just wait please

DON'T GET ON THAT PLANE

You left, I never said goodbye, I can't loose you, I'm sorry please Mia come back

I want to explain

I'm sorry

I decided to scroll down to the latest texts he's sent, I didn't think he showed up at the airport.

I see your in LA

If your happy moving on then I'm happy for you even though I hate it

Right now I wish you were here with me

I can't live without you Mia please

Seeing pictures of you with another man breaks my heart

We never talked about our baby, I should never have left the hospital, and I should never have let you go

My heart hurts, I can't take reading anymore of his texts, I don't want to hear his voice messages he's left. I begin to cry on the floor. I decide to call Allie I hope I'm not waking her, I don't even know what the time would be.

She picks up on the 2nd ring.

"Hello?" she says.

"Hi Allie" I say.

"Mia are you okay what's wrong?" she says into the phone panicked

"I miss him and I slept with someone else," I say crying.

"Oh Mia, it's okay" she says.

"No it's not, I finally felt okay and then I read his messages and that was a stupid idea because now I'm just hurting again," I say.

"Mia everything's going to be okay, where's Hannah?" she asks.

"Um I'll check" I say I run down the stairs to see a note on the fridge from Hannah.

"She's gone out she left a note saying, I went for a walk to check the area out, might see if I can meet a man" I say.

"Typical Hannah, Mia you need to stop thinking about Harrison yes you've been through a lot with him and he wasn't there for you when you needed him most but you need a distraction, maybe go out meet some guys" Allie says.

I stop crying.

"Your right, I need to stop wasting my time and tears on Harrison" I say.

"Yes, no more Harrison, oh wait hold on a second Nick wants me" Allie says.

"Okay" I say, I hear Allie put the phone down.

I can hear Her and Nick whispering like they are arguing, finally she comes back.