A Crazy Complicated Love

Chapter 36

It's been three months since Allie told us girls she was pregnant and Harrison has been distant since then, He never wants to discuss the wedding, he always puts it of or has some sort of excuse. We don't spend much time together, he's always busy and so I've been spending time in the studio working on new music.

Right now I'm at Allies, sitting at the kitchen counter. Nicks watching the football so I decided to come over and keep Allie company and give her an excuse to not have to watch the football game today.

"So how are things with Harrison has he stopped being weird yet?" Allie asks me.

"No, he's just so distant" I say.

"is he okay?" she asks me.

" I don't know, I try asking him and he either gets mad and starts yelling or he just ignores me" I say.

"hmmm, maybe he's on his man period" she says and I start laughing.

"I wish but he's been like this way too long" I say.

"well how are you are you okay?" Allie asks me.

"I'm fine, I was feeling a bit yuck yesterday but I'm alright now, how are you? The pregnancy" I ask.

"well since the last time you asked me two days ago the pregnancy is going great, 23 weeks today actually" Allie says.

"wow where is time going" I say

"Tell me about it" Allie says.

Nick walks into the kitchen to grab some snacks.

"excuse me ladies" he says walking past us, grabbing his food and then walking back out again.

"I swear he's always eating" Allie says and we both giggle.

We talk for a little bit longer before Allie gets tired and decides she wants to get some rest.

"alright well call me if you need me Mia" Allie says giving me hug.

"I will, bye Allie" I say.

I decide to pick up some kebabs on the way home from mine and Harrisons favourite kebab shop, maybe he's hungry.

When I get home I head inside, Harrisons watching the football game.

"I'm home" I say walking inside.

"Hey" he says.

"you hungry?" I ask holding up the bag of food. Harrison smiles and nods.

I take the food over to him and he grabs my waist pulling me close.

"I miss you" he says hugging me. I don't say anything, I sit down next to him and he starts to kiss my neck, when he then kisses me and I taste the alcohol.

I push him of me.

"what the hell Harrison" I say as he looks at me confused.

"what? I can't make out with my fiancée" he says getting mad.

"No, you ignore me and become distant and you never wanna talk about the wedding, what is going on Harrison, why are you being so distant and then wanting to actually acknowledge me when your drunk" I say feeling like I'm about to cry.

Harrison sits up and looks down at his hands.

"I, I can't do it, I can't hurt you" He says.

"What do you mean hurt me? Harrison" I say. He stays quiet.

"I don't think I can marry you" He says quietly still looking down.

"What?" I say feeling my heart shatter.

Harrison looks up at me.

"I don't think I can marry you yet, it's too much commitment and " he begins but I stop listening. He puts his hand on my knee but I push it away and stand up feeling hurt and angry.

"You can't marry me, so you lead me on all this time just to do this to me" I say tears streaming down my face.

"Mia, baby, I just I didn't want to hurt you. I'm not ready to get married" he says.

"well you have hurt me Harrison, once again, I'm leaving, I can't be here" I say running to the bedroom and grabbing a bag and putting some my clothes in it. Harrison comes into the room.

"don't go, this isn't what I want, Mia, don't leave" Harrison says. I pick up the bag and turn around to walk out of the room. Harrison stops me cupping my face with his hands kissing me, I want to stay here and just forget everything but I can't, I push him of me.

"no you can't do this to me" I say crying and I continue to walk away.

When I get to the front door I stop and turn around facing Harrison. I look at him and look down at the ring on my finger.

"Is the engagement off" I say.

"I think it's whats best but it doesn't mean I want to lose you" He says.

I take the ring of and place it on the table next to the door.

"if the engagements off then you'll probably leave me next anyway Harrison, what I don't get is why would you propose to me if you never wanted to get married anyway" I say looking at him.

"because I love you but maybe a break for us would be good" He says.

"goodbye" I say and turn and leave. I get into my car and drive away, I drive all the way back to my families home. Once I get there I get out of the car and walk up to the front door. I knock and my mum answers.

"Hunny I didn't know you were coming to visit" she says and I start crying.

My mum pulls me into a hug.

"whats wrong?" she asks.

"Harrison broke up with me" I say.

"oh Mia, it'll be alright" she says.

"No it won't mum, we were meant to get married, He's scared to commit" I say between crys.

"Mia, he'll be back in no time don't worry sweetie, I'm sure, I've seen how you two are, he loves you" my mum says.

We head inside and I break the news to my family, there shocked but they all think me and Harrison will be back together in no time, I feel like they could be wrong so very wrong.