2AM Thoughts

Order Of Operation

Depression.

It takes over.

It makes to feel worthless, ugly and weak.

At first you'll just just thing you're tired.

Then you'll think you have a case of the flu.

You'll pass it off as if it's nothing.

But the chills, the headaches, the sweating, the stomach growls, never go away.

Google.

You will google your symptoms and see depression on the list.

You'll slowly realize the other awkward behaviours you've experienced lately.

Such as being anxious, scared, shy, drained, etc.

It'll hit you like a tons of bricks.

Your world will come crashing down.

Then you have to make a decision.

Do I tell someone or keep this to myself?

Obviously you will choose keeping it to yourself.

You will become obsessed with the topic.

You'll read books, search poems, look for the signs in others, etc.

Why?

Because it's the only part of you that you know.

It's the only part that's real.

The only part that there's an explanation for.