2AM Thoughts

Items

I haven't slept in a very long time with the clothing of yours, that you let me borrow that day!

Borrow, but eventually let me keep.

At first, I wouldn't sleep without it, I couldn't!

I wore it everywhere I went. I mean everywhere.

Anyways, I stopped for a long time. Nothing happened between us, we were still the same! I don't know why I stopped, I just did.

Maybe the intoxicating smell of you wore off!

Maybe I couldn't picture you wearing it anymore because I've had it for so long now!

I really don't know why okay, I just stopped.

But then when everything between us came crashing down like mudslides, I needed it again!

This, I do know why.

Since you left, they're the only things I have of you with me!

It reminds me of you and all of our great times together.

I was still sleeping with it like before, but it's different now!

Before, I was spread out across my bed with a wide grin reaching my eyes.

Exciting music playing in the background, reading happy stories about relationships just like ours.

I was cuddling those items of yours because I loved you and it reminded me of the times that we had and are going to have!

Now when I cuddle those items it's for total different reasons.

Now, I'm curled up in ball with tears streaming like waterfalls down my face.

Depressing music on blast even though it's still not sad enough to match my emotions. Searching the web for quotes to make me feel not so alone, feeling like this.

I am cuddling those items of yours because I still love you and it reminds me of the times that we had and the times we are not going to have anymore!