2AM Thoughts

Party

To whom make fun of people with anxiety, to whom do not understand anxiety, to whom who has never had an anxiety attack;

Would you like to know how it'd go?

I'll tell you how it'd go because I have to live with regret, guilt, loss and pain every single day. I have to deal with anxiety every day.

1. You will feel dizzy as if you are going to pass out.
2. Your stomach and chest will tighten up.
3. Your eyes will feel dried up even though there are tears threatening to spill.
4. You will start to shake.
5. You will become extremely nervous.
6. Your feet will twist and turn in odd ways.
7. Your mind will race and race until you finally give in and let the anxiety take over.

But I'm warning you, when it does, there's not stopping it.

It clings on to you like a turtleneck.

Feeling like it's going to choke you.

Then follows, the isolation,

Next, the bulimia.

Anorexia.

And worst of all, depression.

Picture, you're having a friend over.

The friend, aka Anxiety, invites all of these previously named friends, for a party.

Each one causes problems.

But then...

Depression walks in.

He burns the house down, gets the cops called, etc.

Do you really want to judge now?

Because one day, if and when, it happens to you, the party never ends.

The friends never go away.

So be careful.

I was too late.

I have my friends.

And this is one party, I wish I hadn't thrown.