I'm Dying Inside

A Deadly Lullaby

Don't cry young one,  hush now

I'll dry your tears and replace them with your blood

There's no need to fear

For your death is near

With it your pain soon to go

Don't cry young one, it will be in vain

It's inescapable for what will happen

So join me now and I'll be your companion

Hugging you close yet seemingly far in your slumber so deep

Not a sound you shall hear me peep

For I'll come into the night

So that there's no fright

An emotion that's bright though there's no shining

For you have been crying so I say thrice a time

Don't cry young one, your tears are nothing but petty not worth a dime

And if you stop I'll make you mine

Embrace me now my darling for I have reached this far

Now it is you that shall walk the bar set so dangerously high

Then jump with me into the darkness of your once bright sky

That had no shining chance through your whining,

Now may prosper through your dying

To live life prosperously was once a title I yearned to live up to  but through time I gave up and now give everything of my last hopes had, that my presence won't be missed, the people that I have affected might be able to live without worry or care for someone who just used and abused their tender emotions, perhaps I'm just being selfish by saying all the people I have affected, when really I don't know if it even mattered to them in the first place, besides wasting time that is... Apologies for being off trac, anywho there was more than what I could handle inside and have let others take control instead. Through my distorted thinking I believe everyone may think it stupid that I fed the things/people I'm not sure, but it wasn't myself. I thought I could live with them but too much has been brought to my attention to be able to cope with it/them/myself? like I had in the past. I wasn't living right and now I'm just too lazy to try.  It's not worth it, we'll all die anyway. Not sure if this made sense to anyone, though that's alright cause I won't be alive to experience wether anyone did or didn't understand. A part of myself wished that I could have explained this better