I'm Dying Inside

She Doesn't Know

I wonder if she still loves me

Does she think of what we could've been

Does she even think about me at all

I've lost count of the times,
I've wished to say hello

And if it would be worth going to she'ol

I'd like to think I'd see her there

but there's only the grave

I know there's no waking if I visit death

When I die, it'd be my last breath

If she does still love me, think of me
and what we could be

Would I let it all go

For what seems like joining the devil to those that know

I won't have the pain that comes

When thinking of past happiness

If I enter into this security
False though it may be

In a relationship that's twisted for both you and me

I know it's useless to dwell in the past for too long

But the present doesn't feel here

And when I think of the future it just disappears

with or without you in it

I'm at my last limit

of what's wrong and right

Of when I should and shouldn't care

It was so dark when you were here

but atleast someone was there to hear the things I couldn't bare

I thought we'd always have each other

We always said we'd be together

but I don't know where you are now
I'm alone and I don't know

I don't know who you are

I don't know when those midnight whispers of what we did wrong

Turned into the witching hum that cuts me from sleep

Restlessly chasing for the answer

Of what I could've done

for those times that you were in need

and confided in me

Before I had let those pieces cut too deep

Maybe you'd still be here

and things would be the same
As they were before

So that I could still stay with you