I'm Dying Inside

Misdirection

He has commanded me,

To be courageous and strong

Not struck with terror or fear that is in this system

But the truth comes out

impostors will advance from bad to worse, misleading and being misled

I am in the chaos that has ensued for centuries

From the first sin of man,

There is the hope to be alive forever

I'm alive but I hope not to be

I am not courageous or very strong and will not withstand the destruction of this system

He has given insight and instructed again in which way to go

But I am and continue to be without understanding

I know I am not wise

and I do have fear

Only not for turning away from bad

But fear of being good

And not being enough

I tied my love and faith around my neck

And hang as blood drips down
From trying to find my heart

I over think His words

meanings become blurred

With what I'm taught is true
and what I want to do

I've lost sight of the path stumbling away from the safety He provided