I'm Dying Inside

Vigilante(sq)

You know,

I think it's funny the way they say

one day you'll find yourself

Its more like

Become who we want you to be

Or else

Because our society has based itself

around a specific criteria that states

you're only worth as much as your

own personal accumulation of wealth

Or how well you listen to your superior

Because don't forget,

You are inferior

Basically

Hypocrites control your mind and you're subsequent to paper weight

Because they're the ones who are making it

But that's only the start of it

We now have access to weapons that

can destroy entire countries

By seeing a trigger,
and simply pulling it

And because of that,

We've dyed this world red with the blood of our own warriors

From bombs to guns,

we're firing rounds

From fathers to sons,

we fall to the ground

Stop with your offers,

there's no saving him now

It's time for an out

Cause of death:

A bullet to the head

What's done is done,

what's said has been said

We live in a world where children lay scared in there beds

Fearful,

that they will never see who they love again

Born into hate,

we were raised to discriminate

They fed us lies like,

Live to fight and fight to live

Never back down,

Never give in

And now something as basic and

humanistic as love

"Is only allowed to exist if someone else allows it"

That's Fvc/<!ng ridiculous

And it should make you sick to your stomach

Burried opinions aside,

Everyone should be allowed happiness,

And that should be the end of it

This isn't a public service announcement

This is me calling out my generation

For accepting complacency with tyranny

I may be broken,

But you will never see me kneel before someone,

and accept life as a token

I will continue to stay outspoken

Because I refuse to be motionless at best

Come with me

And drive off the controversy

I'm breaking out of this glass bottle

They've made our reality

Let's destroy the future,

and build something better

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This is a song called Vigilante by a band named Outlier. Really helped me earlier today because I went in for testing but pressed start too early and caused an onward spiral of anxiety. Especially after one of the wheels on my skate came off when I was going home to hide as fast as possible. Feeling like a complete failure and fool for thinking I could have two continuously good days. Wanting to just end it all because of the fact that I don't feel like I'd ever truly find myself and would be better off to die at my own hands than face ridicule of society for failing academically. I cried for the first time in a long time all because of not meeting up to standards that I never wanted to be a part of and I actually feel better about it. My friend, who I hadn't seen in months, comforted me n listening to this band made me feel at least somewhat in control again for what I can do in the future. I hope anyone else feeling unworthy of life knows that they are deserving of living. Everyone should be allowed happiness
and that should be the end of it.
♡🖤♡

(If you actually read this,
sorry for ranting and rambling at the end)