I'm Dying Inside

Silent Scream

I don't know what I should do
If I should tell you the truth
Or just lay back down and die
That way I won't tell a lie

This temptation is too strong
And I don't know if I belong
Tell me what I should do
That way I won't have to choose

Tell me to got to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

I don't know if this is real
People ask what is the deal
I tell them that I'm ok
Is there any other way

I am going down this path
Of every single thing I lack
Please tell me what I'm doing here
do I at least have a chance
Is it too late to turn back

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

I don't feel like I'm alright
All I want to do is fight
Is there someone else out there
Who can comfort me here

What is wrong with me this year
With these oceans of shedded tears
Plastering on a fake smile
Just to last me a while

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

What has happened to this world
So filled with pain and poverty
That even in my happy place
I still feel unsteady

How could I be so weak
When I used to be so strong
I'm still tired in my sleep
Knowing that I don't belong

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

How can I be myself
In a world full of judgement
Is it better to give up
Or continue to resist

I don't want people to care
Cause all I'll get is pity
Is there anyone out there
Who can understand me

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

How could I feel so alone
Even when I'm in a crowd
I can't feel a thing inside
The silence is so loud

I don't know what I can take
What it takes before I break
All this pressure that's on me
Do you have the sight to see

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

You want me to be happy
While I'm not, I try to be
All for your sake
Cause I don't want your heart to break

I feel like I can't breathe
Even with air around me
All I can do is scream
Knowing no one will hear me

Tell me to go to therapy
Knowing that this won't help me
This time I know I'm on my own
And I don't know where to go

I try so hard not to cry
Even when I don't know why
People say that it's ok
Does it have to be this way

I'm pleading with my heart
To find out who I should be
But if I do decide to die
Do you think they'll even notice me

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(My little sister wrote this and I give her such a hard time but after sharing this with me I do my best to show I love her instead of teasing her as much. It hurts to know she feels like this sometimes but reading it felt like the closest I've ever been not just to her but to anyone in general... I hope that you all feel not just the negatives from this song but take that you're not alone in your feelings and you matter, thanks and sorry for the long post ~🖤)