Salim and Kayal #Watty's 2016 # YourStoryIndia #ProjectWomanUp

Forgiving with a smile

Kayal's POV

It was a very stupid thing for me to do. I shouldn't have winked at him. I feel extremely guilty. I should have known better. Before accepting his proposal I convinced myself that there are certain things which I shouldn't expect from Salim like any sort of physical contact like a hug or a kiss before marriage. Somehow, at that God damned moment I forgot everything and winked at him.

On the other hand there is another worry that has settled in my heart. I always wanted a husband whose hand I can hold and who can keep his hand on my shoulder. No, it's not a sense of security. For me it is a sense of bonding. I go around holding my women friend's hand and hug them all the time. I feel bad that I cannot hold his hand whenever I want to and I can't even dream about him keeping his hands on my shoulders.

I felt bad with his warning message. I mean, to quit your studies just because your woman winked would be a very silly thing to do. And the tone of his warning made me feel as if he was treating me like a school kid. But, I had to ask for his forgiveness. No other go. I should be a little more careful in the future. So as much as possible I avoided looking at him.

On top of it, I am also trying to wean myself from the habit of holding other people's hands. There is one person whom I would like to hold all the time, if he is not up for it, then it would be better if I can train myself to suit him in this matter. Within my heart, I consoled myself saying that God can also design only so many good things in a man. He can't personally customize our spouses based on our choices. God is God not a Tailor.

Today Harneet gave a presentation of his internship report. Most of us were done with our presentations. Salim's presentation was awesome and it gave me a peek into what kind of work he will be doing in the future. During the break Aakash invited the whole class to his farm house in Gurgaon. There were just 25 of us in our class. He, being a son of a Politician could very well afford our stay for the weekend. But, I wasn't comfortable because everybody were planning to visit nearby pubs and discotheques. That was the same case with Sara. I knew Sara will also feel uncomfortable. 

Just when I was thinking how to politely decline the offer I received a message in our group from Salim. His message was simple and cute. "Please don't go ma. John, Harneet and I are also planning to skip this party. Pretty please. It isn't safe". This is the first time he is sending me a message since day before yesterday.

Before, I could reply that I am in no mood to attend any party, Aakash jumped from God knows where in front of me and started speaking in his express speed. "We will start by 7:00 p.m today and will return by Monday early morning. You don't have to worry about anything. Everything is well taken care of".

Before he could go on and on about his plans I waved my hands to stop him. "See, first thing I have to study for our exams. Secondly, my parents will not let me. On top of it, I am also engaged now. My fiancé will definitely be not happy if I tell him that I will be visiting some pubs. Please understand".

To this he gave me an extremely shocked expression. "You are engaged??????????? How come? You are too young to be engaged. Were you forced into it?"

I so expected this. "Chill, dude. First of all I am an adult. I am 22 years old. Nobody can force me into anything. And, definitely not into an engagement."

"What is his name? What does he do? Where is he from?"

"In our families saying out our fiancés name brings in bad omen. I will show you our wedding invitation when it is ready. He is from Tamil Nadu. He is doing his Master's now and he has got placed in Chennai. It's an arranged marriage". Well, I managed to answer without having to reveal Salim or say some lies.