Blue

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4 days 5 hours 10 minutes and 53 seconds

until her best friend moves 

9 hours 16 minutes and 589 miles away.

the more she thinks about it

the more she wants to cry

but no tears will come.

why can't she cry?

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4days 5hours 9minutes 37seconds

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she tries not to imagine

life without her best friend

but it's hard

because what will she do?

skype calls, texting, letters

aren't enough.

she wouldn't be able to hug her best friend.

it wouldn't be the same.

who was she going to talk to?

who was she going to take pictures with?

who was she going to hang out with?

who was she going to be herself around?

it was like a never ending cycle of loneliness.

first she moved away from her best friend Rosie,

and her best friend Gracie was moving away from her.

maybe it was karma

to make her feel the pain she caused

in a sense. 

she wished Gracie wasn't moving.

it was hard enough to have a different friend barely speak to her

but then to have her best friend move away?

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4days 3hours 7minutes 23seconds

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she didn't want to think anymore

to feel

she just wanted to get lost in an abyss of imagination

where reality couldn't catch her

where she could fly

and do whatever she pleased

and be free.

books and dreams and movies were her escape.

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3days 15hours 11minutes 47seconds

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she wanted to see her best friend

but she couldn't

Gracie had to pack

all of her things in boxes.

what would become of her house?

who would move into it? 

who would infest it

change it

make it their own

as if they had a right?

almost as if they were trying to fill a role

they could never even come close to 

like a drop of water