Blue

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college applications.

the epitome of stress.

all anyone ever seemed to talk about

nowadays

was college

"what college do you want to go to?"

"what do you want to study in college?"

college

college

college

college

she found herself 

falling into the never-ending loop

of college talk.

she couldn't escape it.

it was worse

when she couldn't answer

the only question 

everyone cared about.

she didn't know

what she was supposed to do 

with her life.

what was she going to study?

who was she going to be?

a pit formed in her stomach

every time she thought of her future...

sometimes she wondered

if she was ever meant to have a future at all?

she couldn't imagine herself in college;

it was too bizarre.

she half expected 

to die before the school year ended

before she graduated

before she started college.

she dreamed of her future, 

but dreams never turn into reality;

why should her future be any different?

when she wasn't talking to others about college

she stressed about writing

her college essays;

would she be accepted?

has her entire high school career

been a complete failure?

the pit in her stomach 

grew wider and darker.

to cope

she procrastinated

every 

single

thing;

homework, 

college applications,

reading, 

writing, 

sleeping.

she was no longer the peasant 

in procrastination nation: 

she was crowned its queen.

rather than getting her work done