Veronica

The Heartbroken

We get into my house around 1am. We both tip toe up the stairs and into my room. I get undressed and I'm just naked infront of her. I kind of don't care considering the fact that she's my best friend. I put a robe around me and she lays down on my bed. She look extremely exhausted. I pull her arm so she can sit up. I take off her jewelry for her and I drag her to the bathroom.

I begin to wipe off her makeup and I wipe off mine. I brush my teeth and I drag her to my room and I close my door. She takes off her dress and I give her one of my t-shirts. I have an obsession of sleeping naked so that's what I'm doing.

"I hope you don't mind me being next to you and sleeping naked." She laughs and waves me off. She gets into my bed and I take off my robe and get into my bed. I'm so fucking tired it's not even acceptable.

"He proposed to her." I looked at Denise like she was going crazy. What the hell is she talking about?

"What?" She puts her hand on her face and I stare at her to explain what the hell she is talking about.

"Mr. Andrews proposed to his girlfriend at the club. That's why I was so upset." I feel my heart beat a little fast and I turn away from Denise. I feel a tear escape, but I just wipe away. It's not that I was attached to him or anything. It hurts more knowing that he was scared for me to find out. That explains that stupid expression on his face.

"Oh." I managed to say and that's all I can say. Denise rubs my back and I turn and face her.

"So he's getting married. So what? I wasn't attached to him or anything. He was just a fuck. I just know he wouldn't tell me. I was in the bathroom and it was just us two and he could've told me, but he didn't." She nodded her and I shrugged my shoulders like I said I don't need him, Austin, or Chad. They're all the same to me. They're a bunch of scared BOYS.

Why does this shit always happen to my ass? People can't be real at all. I didn't think I would be this affected by this man at all. I didn't think this shit would hurt, but it did. We had emotion involved that's for sure otherwise it wouldn't hurt so damn much.

"How the fuck are you thirty something and still don't know to be upfront? Shit like that is not hard to say. You should be beaming in excitement that you would tell the whole world." I really am just trying to wrap my head around this shit. Everyone is just so fucked up in the head. Shit just amazes me I swear. I turn back around and stay quiet. I begin to drift asleep

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I'm not ready for the day ahead. I get out of bed and grab my clothes. Some jeans and my black bralette. I go into one of my drawers and find some weed and shells. Yes... Yes... What a girl needs I swear.

I begin to light up and feel all my pain go away. I see Denise wake up and she smiles at me. I let her get a couple of hits and all of a sudden I have an idea to just skip school.

"Denise skip school with me today." she nods her head and joins me on the floor. I throw my clothes back into my closet and continue smoking with Denise. This is how I want to feel. I want be numb from the pain and this is helping me accomplish it.

"Roni, you know it's not like you were ever going to see Mr. Andrews again. Knowing you would've probably never made another visit to his ass." I roll my eyes and she just smiles.

"That's not the fucking point. The fucking point is he could've told me. He should've never had me lay in his bed. He should've never made it seem like he actually cared about me and here he is getting engaged and the bitch can't tell me." we finish the first blunt and we start the next. I lay down and hear someone buss into my room. Of course it's Chad who is literally eating me alive right now by looking at my naked body.

He comes in and closes the door. He takes and hit and then leaves. This motherfucker did not just do that. Could he smell it or something? I think I need to put on my robe.

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All day Denise and I just smoked and drank. Anything to make me feel better. Now, we're just eating because we have the munchies. I put in the movie Dazed and Confused.

"You okay Roni?" Denise is always so concerned about my well being. I've never met another person like her I swear.

"I'll be fine." She smiles slightly and we continue watching the movie. This movie honestly cheers me up. I go to the kitchen and begin to pop some popcorn. I'm really hungry and I'm just going to order some damn pizza. I get on my phone and order it from online. A large pepperoni pizza, 24 buffalo wings, and a Dr. Pepper. I put in the order and take the popcorn out the microwave. I put into a large plastic bowl and I bring it out into the living room. I see Denise is on her phone and she looks very serious. I sit down and put the bowl between us.

I try to pay attention this movie, but honestly I can't. I just keep thinking about how shocked Mr. Andrews was to see me. I'm just trying understand why he couldn't tell me. Am I so hard to talk to? I hear the doorbell ring. It must be the pizza thank Goddddd. I open the door to the pizzaman. He's attractive. I smile at him and I pay him the money. I take the pizza, and he places the wings on top of the pizza and I grab the Dr. Pepper with my other hand.

"Thank you darling." He smiles at me and walks away. I close the door and I quickly go into the livimg room and put this on the center table. I hear her get off the phone and I smile at her.

"Ooooooh pizza." I laugh and she opens the box and grabs a slice. She begins to eat like she hasn't eaten in days. I laugh and I open the Dr. Pepper. I don't feel like getting cups so we'll just go back and forth taking sips.

"Thank you for getting this Roni." I smile and nod my head. Yeah those snack weren't going to do the job. We need this badly.

"So who was that on the phone?" I ask and she takes a few more bites of her pizza. I laugh at the way she took the bites.

"It was Daniel." I nodded my head and looked at her. I just want to know what tea he was spilling to her.

"I'll tell you once you've eaten Roni." I nod my head and continue to eat the pizza. This is so goodddddddd, Oh My God. I needed this so bad. I've never been so happy.

"Leave two pieces for Chad." she looks at me. I just roll my eyes. Of course I would leave some pizza for him. This is his favorite. I'm not inconsiderate. I take the box and I go upstairs. I open his door and leave the pizza at the foot of his bed. He says nothing to me and I don't say anything to him. I go back downstairs and sit next to Denise.

"Daniel called me because he heard some teachers talking and they said that Mr. Andrews would be leaving California this week and would be staying somewhere in Europe." I get up and walk up the stairs and to my room. This is too much. Denise comes in and I'm just pacing back and forth.

"Ughhhhh and he probably wouldn't even tell me Denise. That's what's so funny about all of this shit. He's going to miss graduation like damn. He's probably leaving tomorrow or by next Monday. Who the fuck knows?" I begin to breathe in and out and she just hugs me. I can admit it now I got attached. I got way too attached.

"I got attached Denise and it fucking hurts." I begin to cry and she just holds me. That's all I want is to be held and I don't want anyone to say anything to me. Life is just this big game.

"Why do I always get heartbroken?" She holds me and says nothing and I'm completely satisfied with that answer.