Veronica

Fear

I finally reach L.A. and into my neighborhood. I reach home around 5:30am. The time that everybody is up and getting dressed for their day except for Chad. I unlock the door and I see my mother appear from the top of the stairs. She quickly runs down the stairs and hugs me.

"Veronica Miller I was freaking worried about you. I'm glad you're home safe. Where'd you go?" I shrug my shoulders and I hug her again. I was only gone for two days. That wasn't that long. We let go and we walk upstairs. She goes into the bathroom to finish getting dressed.

I head into to Chad's room and he's fully up and just listening to music. He looks at me and takes his headphones out.

"I'm back." I smiled trying to break the ice that was between us. He was clearly upset.

"Great." He said nonchalantly and I stared at him. I walked into his room and shut the door. I jumped on to his bed and smiled. I hit his arm playfully.

"C'mon Chad don't be like that." He rips his earphones out his ears and stares at me like I'm crazy for saying that.

"You left and you tried to do it without telling no one. The only person who really knew about this whole leaving plan was my mother." I see him get up and I notice scratch marks on his back. They look like really new scratch marks too. This bitch.

"Well it looked like you had a nice pleasure filled time without me." He turned around quickly and came up to me. He looked down at me and all of a sudden I felt small. I stand up and look up. I was looking him straight in the eye.

"I'm sorry, am I not allowed to fuck my sorrows away?" My mouth drops open and all of a sudden I feel even smaller.

"Not if you're going to make it seem like you barely survived without me. I just came in here to tell you I'm back, but clearly you don't give a fuck." I begin to walk and head for the door until Chad puts his arm on the door and I can't open it. I'm trapped by his arms and I turn around to see that his face is extremely close to mine.

"I give a fuck Roni. I just don't like it when you do things without thinking it through." I roll my eyes and just stare at him. I'm over this bullshit.

"Move." He looks at me confused and I push him away and hit him in the chest a couple of times.

"I don't need you, Austin, or Mr. Andrews. Fuck all of you. You all can kiss my ass with all your care for you bullshit. All of you just piss me off. You act as if you have this broken wing. Well, guess what? I HAD broken wings, but I was the bigger person and fixed it. Whatever needs to be fixed between you and your mom go fix it. Don't try to do it through me." I open his door and slam it shut. My mother comes out the bathroom and I smile at her.

"I'm fine." I say and I go into my room and get ready for school. I need to get out this house. Everything is just a bunch of bullshit. I get dressed in some jeans and a simple tank top. I put my hair into a ponytail and I leave the house and wait at the bus stop for my bus.

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I arrive to school and I just feel like ignoring everyone and just doing my school work. I'm doing just that. I get to my first hour and pay attention to everything Mr. Andrews is saying. I finish his work and assignment and I hear the bell ring. Denise can tell something is up with me, but she knows not to ask about it.