Veronica

Graduation

I get up and get ready for this graduation rehearsal. I can't believe this day is actually here. I never thought it would get here. I brush my teeth, wash my face and do my usual. Yesterday when I got back from Mr. Andrews Chad didn't talk to me at all. He was pissed at me. Why is he always judging my choices? I don't make the brightest decisions, but I know what I get myself into when I get myself into it.

I put on some sweatpants, a tank, and my vans. I am not getting cute for no one. I put my hair into a messy bun and I head downstairs to make myself a good breakfast. Actually, I'll make everyone a good breakfast. I begin to cook some eggs, bacon, and pancakes.

I'm so happy that this day has come this is all I waited for. I hear everyone coming into the kitchen. Yes, motherfuckers I'm back and so is my sparkle. I take some plates out and I give everyone their plate with everything on it.

"Thank you Roni for this amazing breakfast." I smile at my mom and I kiss her cheek. I hand Frank his plate and he smiles at me and I smile back. I give Chad his plate even though he's upset at me. I give Erin her plate and she thanks me and I give her a hug.

I make myself a plate and I grab the syrup and put it in the middle. Everyone is talking and for once I'm not mopey. I'm actually smiling, but I'm extremely hungry so I won't be talking.

"Roni, I know I avoided this topic with you, but what are you planning to do for the rest of your life?" I looked at my mom and smiled. I took another bite of my pancakes.

"I plan to live." I saw her shake her head and laugh. It was the truth, I plan to live. I didn't make any plan, I just wanted to go on my instinct. Erin looks at me and smiles. I look at my phone and see that it's time for Chad and I to go. I finish off my plate and I put it in the sink. Chad does the same.

"Just ride in my car." I look at him confused. Wait... So you can let me ride in your car, but you can't speak to me. What type of bullshit? I kiss my mom on the cheek and head for the front door. Chad unlocks his car and we get in.

The whole car ride is silent and I don't plan on breaking it. I see that he has his ear phones in. What the fuck? You have an aux cord. He always listens to the same song when ever he's down. I know because the beat is the same. I can't clearly make it though.

We arrive to the arena and we are seated where we are supposed to be. I honestly just need this shit to go snap snap like right about now. They go through the whole program and who goes first and all the speeches. Then it's the choir and diploma shit and how to shake hands like we all didn't learn this when we graduated from elementary.

They tell us how we can't do stupid stuff and threaten us by saying we won't graduate if act stupid on shit. Literally, all this bullshit is meaningless to me. Just give me my damn diploma and let me live. An hour, for an hour they wasted my time with this rehearsal.

I walk back to Chad's car as he sits there talking with people he can talk to later. I have so much shit to do. I need to get me a graduation dress or outfit or something. I have enough heels so I'll be fine.

I'll probably hang with Denise the rest of the day or something. Actually let me just ride with her. I walk up to Chad as he's talking to Lisa. What the hell?

"Chad I'm riding with Denise." he nods his head and I roll my eyes. I find Denise and walk up to her.

"Denise we have shopping to do." she laughed and we looped arms. We walked her car and we got in. She began to head for the mall.

"So why didn't you text back yesterday?" I smile and she takes a quick glance at me. Remembering yesterday makes me smile.

"I went to Mr. Andrews and we had a little goodbye session." I heard gasp and I started to laugh. She entered into the mall parking lot and let me tell you. It is packed. She found a parking spot surprisingly. If it was me, it would've taken me hours. We got out the car and she looped arms with me again.

"So you know how after graduation everyone goes out to eat? Well, Lisa is throwing a party after and we should go." I rolled my eyes and looked at her. She shrugged her shoulders and we headed into H&M.

"The last time I went to a Lisa party it didn't go so well." Denise smacks her lips and stares at me. I throw my hands up and I go through the racks.

"Roni, pleassssseeee go. Pleaseeeee." I sigh and I see a white jumpsuit that ties in the back and has a low v cut in the front. It had long pant legs. I like it, if I pair it with my black stilettos and my dark purple lipstick. Maybe have my hair down and straightened smoothed back like Rihanna in her Four Five Seconds video. Yes, I'm getting this. I grab it and look at Denise's puppy dog face.

"I'll go and how does this look." She claps her hands and nods her head quickly. I go up to the cashier and she checks it out. I pay for it and I grab my bag from.

Denise guys herself a gold dress that stops above the knee. It was gorgeous. We went back into the main mall and went to the food court. Food.... Food is honestly what I need at this moment. I get some orange chicken, rice, and broccoli from Panda Express. Denise got Chipotle. We sit down and I begin to eat.

"No fucking way? What the hell?" I look up at Denise face and I look where she's looking. I turn around and..... No fucking way. Chad and Lisa.... What the fuck? They're all hugged up and shit. I turn back around and continue eating.

"What the hell is Chad thinking?" I laugh and shrug. I honestly don't know because crazy shit like this happens all the damn time. It's not the first time I've seen them together. When I first moved in she was all up on him at the house. Even then his eyes would be on and that was when he wanted to fuck me.

"I honestly can't tell you Denise. He's just being Chad." she looks at me. I guess looking for a sign to see if I care. I do, but I won't show it. I spent two weeks being a mopey bitch I'm not going back to that. I rather be a fake happy bitch or a pissy bitch than a mopey bitch.

"Did I tell you that we got together Saturday and he did something completely different?" she shakes her head and waits for me to continue.

"He took his time with me. He literally went slow with me and explored every part of me. I was scared Denise. Then, a tear escaped because I realized no one has ever fucked me that way. He was the first person. We laid there and he told me he was in love with me." I hear Denise gasp and she starts to smile. I look at her and smile a little before letting it fade.

"I didn't tell him. I couldn't I was os scared. I didn't have the guts to tell him that I felt that same." she looks at me and smiles slightly. She holds my hand and gives it a little squeeze. I go back to eating and so does she.

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We begin to get dressed and Denise looks absolutely stunning. She has on her gold dress and gold heels. She has her hair curled and pinned up. I must say I look pretty damn good myself.

I had the jumpsuit on and the dark purple lipstick matched it so well. We put on our gowns and held our caps in our hands. We left my room and I see Chad looking sharp. I actually want to take him right here right now. He has on blue slacks, white button down, with a black bow tie. He stares at me and I stare at him. Denise grabs my hand pulling me out of my trance and we head downstairs. We leave my house and get into her car. She begins to drive to the arena.

"What the hell was that back there? You guys were eating each other alive." I begin to laugh and I just stare at her.

"It was just a little weak moment that's all." She laughs and we arrive to the arena. We get out the car and head inside. We zip up our gowns and put our caps on making sure the tassel is on the correct side.

This day got here so fast and so quick and I'm so excited. The music begins and we begin to walk in order so we sit in our correct seats. Everyone's family is here and you can hear all of the cheers. We are seated and I watch as everything happens in slow motion for me. From the speeches that went by even slower it seems to the rows being called up. Everything went by in slow motion until my row stands up and walks to the side of the stage.

I step up to take my picture and then wait behind two other people for my name to be called. I look around and I see my mother and waves at me. I smile at her.

"Veronica Miller." I hear my family scream and I walk up to get my diploma. I shake the principal's hand and I leave the stage heading back to my seat. I made it.... I actually made it and who would've thought. We switch our tassels and I watch everyone's cap fly into the air. I smile and do the same.