Light Turning Dark✖️Carl Grimes

[18] She's gone

Kaylees pov

"She can't just get up and leave" I said frustrated.

"Well, she already did" Beth said sadly.

"Fine, If she wants to be an asshole and leave me than so be it. I thought we were supposed to be there for each other. Clearly I was wrong" I explained before storming out of the house and running across the field. I got about halfway before I felt a hand grab onto my shoulder.

"Get off me" I snapped at who was behind me. I turned around and saw that it was Maggie.

"S-sorry," I stuttered, "I just thought Quinn was better than this" I sighed.

"I know, but you need to stay here. It's not safe out there" she exclaimed.

"Maggie, I'm not a little kid anymore I can-"

"You're 12"

"I'm still old enough to handle myself, I've done fine so far" I told her.

"I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want you to end up like one of those things. We're close. I can't see you like that. I won't let it happen" she told me. I smiled and looked at the ground.

"Thanks Mags" I said. She wrapped her long arms around my small body and held me close. The hug felt like one my mother used to give me and Quinn. That's when I knew I could trust Maggie.

"I have a question" I said, she nodded her, telling me to continue.

"You and Glenn.... Are you guys something?" I asked.

"I-I don't know... He saved me the other day at the pharmacy. I just don't know what to think of him" she admitted. She let out a long sigh.

"I think you should ask him out. He's a good guy. He promised to keep me safe, and he told me he would look after me like a dad" I said, becoming more happy.

"But... Daryl's your dad" she said.

"No. After what he did... I can't forgive him. He left my mom and Quinn and I. If he cared he would have looked for us first. But he went off and had more kids and completely forgot about us. How can someone do that? Glenn cares about me and that's all that matters. Glenn's my dad"

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"Kaylee, I need to talk to you" Daryl said, coming up from behind me. I was sitting on the fence out in the field.

"There's nothing to say" I said flatly.

"Look I'm sorry-" he started, but I stopped him right away.

"Just stop, okay? I can't deal with you or anything anymore. I'm done with everyone's bullshit. I don't give a fuck if you're my dad or not. Glenn is taking care of me. He's the only one that has my full respect. You lost it the day you left us. You went off and forgot about us, had other kids and ignored us. Do you not care? If we died would you cry? Probably not. I don't care what you try to do. Glenn's my dad. He's my only dad. And he's not an ass about it" I said angrily. I stomped back to Hershel's house and when I got there I ran to the bathroom.

I opened and shut the door, locking it.  I sat on the edge of the bathtub and dropped my head into my hands and let the tears flow out of my eyes. I couldn't hold them back anymore. It was pointless in trying.

I sniffled as I looked up. I noticed a cabinet above the sink and got up and walked over to it. I looked in the mirror that was attached to it and my eyes were puffy and red. I wiped my face before opening the cabinet and seeing a small blade that is for a mans razor. I immediately got an idea. I didn't care what anyone else thought. Who gave a shit at this point.

(Trigger warning, don't read if you've cut or are. And if you have/are because you're having problems, you can talk to me. I'll care!)

I picked up the sharp razor and stared at it for a second. I brought the blade down to my fragile skin and began to press the sharp blade into my left wrist. I felt as every tiny individual blade dug deeper into my skin. Blood began to trickle down my arm as I pressed harder. I pressed hard enough that half the blade was in my skin. The pain was nowhere near as bad as this world was causing us.

My blood began to pour out faster and soon a lot of my arm was covered in my dark blood.

"KAYLEE?!" I heard Maggie yell from the other side of the door. The doorknob started to wiggle like crazy and she was pounding on the door.

"Kaylee, open up" she said, still banging on the door.

"Watch out" I heard someone say. The door flew open and Maggie didn't know what to say. I quickly ripped it out and dropped the blade to the ground.

"What did you do?," Maggie asked, wrapping me in a hug, "you can't do that. You can't scare me like that"

I just kept holding my wrist. I didn't hug back.

"Quinn left...... She left and isn't coming back" I said, not looking up to her.

"You don't know that. c'mon, let's go" she said, walking out of the room with me. When I walked out Luca was standing there, worried, scared and most of all.... Anger. But I didn't care. My sister was gone. How could I deal with that?

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