Lost Without Them (Ashton Irwin Story)

Watch Your Back

Storm's POV

I spin around in the chair again for the 10th time in a row, letting the room dissolve into a blur before it is stopped suddenly by somebody grabbing the arms of the chair.

"Stop you weirdo." Calum laughs, going back to working on notes once I am at a complete standstill.

"It's not my fault you lot are boring." I complain.

"We don't like this either but it's part of our jobs, if we didn't do it then we would have no music to play." Luke mumbles, still scribbling on a piece of paper.

"Calum, I thought you said you were bringing in something." John Feldmann speaks up, I have met him before but I can't say that I am particularly close to him.

"I did." Cal replies before shuffling over to his bag.

As soon as he pulls the book out of his bag my heart stops. I thought I could trust Calum but seeing him betray me and pull my songbook from his bag actually hurt.

"That's not yours. You have no right to do that." Michael is immediately on the defence.

"Your right, it's not mine but it deserves to be looked at. Its good lyrics wise, it's just needs something to back it up." Calum replies as he hands over the book to John.

John holds it for a few seconds, not making a move to open it, before placing on the table in front of him. "If it's not yours Calum then whose is it? It's their choice if the song gets made or not."

Calum sighs before turning to me. "Storm, its one song. It's amazing and we could really make something of this."

Ash sits forward at that, as Luke catches on. "Calum no, you don't get it do you. It's not just a song to her, it means so much more than that and you can't just hand it in and make it into something if that is something that she doesn't want to talk about." Luke growls.

"Maybe it has meanings behind it but it's not like its obvious what the words mean to her exactly, it could mean something different to everyone." Calum argues.

"You may be my best friend but you sure can be a dick when you want to be." Michael glares, pushing away from the table and moving away from Calum completely.

"Feldy" - as the boys call him - eyes the book for a minute or so while this is going on before turning his attention to me. "There's more than one song in here, probably more like 10 if I'm not mistaken, right?"

I nod. "Yeah, but they were never meant to be made into anything. Just thoughts and memories put into words instead of being churned around my head and bringing me down."

He considers my answer before turning to the boys and instantly shutting them up. "Calum, this is a personal book. It is not your choice to make with what happens to this song."

"But-"

"No buts, you should have asked. If you have nothing of your own then you better get working because I can't take this unless I have permission from the rightful owner."

Calum deflates before dropping down into his chair to start to make something they can actually use.

"Boys, bums in chairs now and get working." John instructs to the other before turning back to the computer on his desk.

I pick up my book off the table, flicking through the pages before ripping out the needed pages. I shove the book in Ashton's bag before folding the loose pages in half after reading over the lyrics written on them. Taking a deep breath I walk to where Calum and the boys are working hard to make something - anything - to put on the new album. I slide the paper closer to Calum, keeping my hand on top of it for a second.