The Badboy And His Clique

xxxi.

*Sage's P.O.V*

"Want to talk about it?" I ask.

Aspen nods slowly and we just fall onto the floor holding each other.

"He pretended to be happy for me to make me feel less depressed about my decision for college cause I got accepted into Columbia and Iowa and he asked which one I would choose and I said Iowa and his smiled faded but I still have yet to see the better if percentages which is probably Columbia. He made it such a big deal and made it seem as if I didn't care about us, our relationship and that's all I had in mind. I didn't plan on getting accepted! Now I can't think about my future cause I'm worried about him and he makes it seem as if it's my fault that I got accepted there and that's my choice. The. He goes on and on about how his life is fucking terrible until he met me basically guilting me and I hated listening to him because I can't stand to think of what he was telling me and I compared my life with his and we're the same exact person except the fact I have you." She says all in one breath, her breathing become unsteady.

"Aspen, breath. You're okay babe. Don't hyperventilate okay?" I smile at her.

"How can you be so happy Sage?" She looks at me with sad eyes.

I say nothing, I just look at her and smile.

"Ryker and I had a much similar argument, I was accepted into Columbia and he wasn't all thrilled. He is going to school with Brody and I told him that we would all stick together. I totally forgot about our applications. And then he told me how shitty his life was and that I finally made him have a reason to live, not just because he was brought here. Then he tried to blame everything on me not understanding what he is going through with his dad and that just pushed it. Of course I went off and told him all about never meeting my dad, I never got to meet him, probably never will cause he is scared, and then he said he lived with so much guilt for his dad and that crushed me. I couldn't handle it anymore. I told him about Brayden and how I should've said him but I didn't and I lost it." I completely sob.

"I know Sage. Look at us. Crying over boys we started dating a few days ago." Aspen let's out a small chuckle.

"No doubt in my mind, when he slammed that door, he sped off to Heagyn's to drink." I shake my head

"Brody is probably on his way there now." Aspen nods.

"God Aspen. I feel so terrible. I hate this. I hate being reminded that I could've save my brother but I didn't. I can't live like this Aspen. I can't."