"Never grow up" (~TS~)

Chapter 2: "the outside" (part one)

Daddy left for work early today and mommy has the day off. Mommy told me last night that she would take me to a park today. I haven't been to a park in a very long time!! But of corse, we have to be home before daddy gets home from work.

"Addie! Let's get ready ready so we can go to a park!" Mommy said.

I hopped out of my small bed. Yay! I love parks!! I went to my small closet and looked at the few clothes I have. I'm trying to find something that doesn't have many holes in it.

" mommy! I want to wear this!" I said.

I'm talking about my pretty blue dress. It's light blue and has sparkles on the bottom. Mommy helped me get dressed. I found my old black flats and put them on. They are getting a little too small but I don't want to complain to mommy. I know she can't do anything since she doesn't have any money. Daddy takes all the money and hides it from mommy. Or buys alcohol and drugs with it. Last time I got new clothes, it was a pink dress for my 3rd birthday. It was from grandma. I haven't seen her since then. Daddy got mad at that grandma got me a new dress, so I'm never allowed to see her ever again. Neither is mommy. I don't understand why daddy has to be so mean. He never used to be this mean to me and mommy. Mommy put my hair up into pig tails. She always says I looks cute with them.

"Ok, are you ready to go, baby?" Mommy asked.

"Yes!!" I said.

I know we can only stay at the park for a few hours, since we have to get home before daddy gets home from work so we don't get in trouble. Mommy grabbed my hand. I live in a pretty nice neighborhood. It has a park and an ice cream shop right next to it. The only person that has a car they lives in my house is daddy. Mommy isn't allowed to use it. But she does have her license. Daddy even makes mommy walk to work!! It's not fair!! I don't mind walking to the park with mommy, though. I love being outside. That's why daddy never lets me go outside, except when I eat. He takes away everything I love. I don't love very many thing anymore. Only because daddy took those things away from me. He's taken away my swing set, hula hoop, jump rope, a lot of my clothes, shoes, and even my doggie. I did used to have a doggie. His name was cookie. I think he was a toy poodle. He was brown. That's why I named him cookie. The only thing daddy hasn't taken away, is mommy. He can't take mommy away!! I hope he never does.

"Hey Addie, what if we see Taylor swift today?" Mommy says excitedly.

I don't think we will, but it could happen. Since I live in Rhode Island and Taylor swift has a house here.

"Maybe. " I said as the park came into view.

I'm sooooo excited!! I let go of mommys hand and ran the rest of the way to the park.

"Addie! Be careful!!" Mommy yelled after me.

Then she ran up to me. I'm already at the park.

"Swings!" I said.

I pointed and ran over to them.

"Do you want the baby swing or the big girl swing?"

I pointed to the baby swing. I don't like the big girl swings. I always feel like I'm going to fall off of them. Mommy lifted me up and put me into the swing.

"Push me high, mommy!" I screamed.

Mommy pushed the swing up and ran under it. An underdog.

"Ah!"

I got that butterfly feeling in my belly. I screamed louder.

"Higher!!"

Mommy pushed me higher. She eventually stopped me.

"Do you want to get ice cream?"

I nodded my head yes. I wonder where mommy got the money from. Oh well. I probably shouldn't ask. I don't want mommy to be mad at me.

"What kind do you want?" Mommy asked when we got to the ice cream shop.

"Vanilla with rainbow sprinkles!"

Mommy paid for our ice cream and we went over to a table to eat it. After a while, mommy looked at her watch that daddy gave her a really long time ago.

"Addie, hurry up and finish so we can get home and give you a bath before daddy gets home. "

"Ok. "

Eventually I finished my tummy ice cream. Then me and mommy walked home together. Before I went inside, mommy went in to check if daddy came home while we were gone. She came back outside and told me to come in.

"Addie, hurry and get undressed." Mommy said.

I took of my clothes and put them in my room and ran back into the bathroom. Mommy helped me into the tub. I sat down. The warm water feels nice. But on some of the cuts i have in my back, it hurts. I haven't had a bath in a very long time it seems like. It's probably been about a month if not longer. After a few minutes, mommy washed me and then wrapped me into a towel. I ran to my room and changed into new clothes. Mommy washed my dirty clothes in the sink so daddy can't tell that the washer and dryer were used. Eventually, mommy heard the garage door open so she told me that she needs to lock me in my room. I obey mommy. I don't want to see mommy get beat. And I don't want daddy to beat me. I sat on my small bed and and mommy locked my door from the outside. Then I heard daddy come into the house.

"What have you done all day?" He asked.

Them mommy spoke loudly. "I just gave Addie another beating. "

I can imagine daddy smiling. That's a lie. Mommy didn't beat me. I laid in the floor and pretended to be knocked out just I case daddy comes in. He did.

"Good job babe!!" I heard daddy tell mommy.