Poems For Them

The End

I get it now,
I really do.
The world is so beautiful,
It's just not for both, me and you.

With death and demons,
I fought every night.
Praying and hoping,
That our worlds would finally collide.

In the darkest of times,
And in the deepest of rooms,
I stayed for years,
Waiting for you.

I obeyed and I followed,
All of your terrible demands.
Believing that you and I,
Were actually meant to last.

I broke and cried in my mind's cell,
Lying to myself about you and your hell.
In my eyes a king you always have been,
With your broken crown covering all of your sins.

But then there were the good times too.
The times when my dreams were only good when you were in them too.

The times we ran and played like kids.
When we loved and cried only from relief.
The times we talked as if we came out of myths.
When we were dancing and laughing as if we trully believed.

From all the times that we spent together, my favorite has to be this.
You were holding me like i was the one you trully cherrished.
We were laying in the sand by the beach,
Looking at each other and saying what we really feel.

You lied that you loved me,
But i believed you thought.
I guess i was really desperate,
To be the half of your whole.

I tried and tried for us to be together,
But maybe you and I are to be apart, for the better.

So tonight I'm putting down my guns for good.
I'm opening my cell but closing my heart's door too.
I'll start a fire that will reach the sky,
And burn evrything that used to be you and I.

This night, my suffering is finally over.
I pack my bags and shut the door to your face,
Looking behind me only one time,
And only to see your kingdom fall to the flames.

In the road to my new life,
Today i walk.
Promising to myself that i'll get back what you once stole.

Full of confidence and hope I walk alone this day.
Pieces of a broken life leading my way.
For the first time in forever,
I tear away my fake mask.
And put on the bright smile that I forgot I had.

The first train to nowhere I'll take tonight.
Knowing that you won't dare and follow me,
But instead run and hide.

Full of anger and hate I know i seem to be,
But no one could blame me,
Knowing the hell that i've been living in.

But....as i look at the ceiling, one more time,
I feel a calmness filling me and the stars aleign.
I look back to the moments when we were together,
And realize that maybe there is no forever.

I now know that people love deeply and true,
And that there is no harm in loving more than one person too.
I now believe that all things end good and that everyone gets what they want,
not at the same time though.

As much as I thought I hated you,
I think you know i never could.
And that even if we dont want to,
We'll see each other soon.

We might have families or we might be alone,
But nothibg is final and that's okay too.

I step into the train and start my journey with a hopeful soul.
Accepting that life is not easy and that in it's hardships,
I'll stand tall,
Like you thaught me to.

And when I close my eyes at the first melody of the rising sun.
This time i know,
That you and I are...done.