My Diggy Diggy One Shots

Everything You Want

A teencast Sjips song!fic that's kinda angsty

Everything You Want by  Vertical Horizon

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Somewhere there's speaking

It's already coming in

Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind

You never could get it

Unless you were fed it

Now you're here and you don't know why

My phone buzzes next to me, this time a message from Duncan. Where are you?

Somewhere I shouldn't be. At a lake. Skipping rocks. Avoiding everyone. Trying to not think about the going-away party that is being thrown for my best friend.

Picking up a smooth, flat rock I whip it forward and watching as it skips two.. three.. four times before sinking into the water. It helps to relieve some of the anger.

No, I want to shout. Leave me alone! Sjin and I already said goodbye.

A light breeze causes the newly-sprouted leaves on the trees to shake around me. Leaning back on my hands, a bird caw-caw-caw-ing somewhere to my left, I look out across the lake.

My phone buzzes again, another message from Lewis. "Fuck off, jeez! What's the big deal, anyways?" Why don't they understand?

Didn't wanna see your boyfriend off? A message from Smith. Too busy seeing him get off?

I can practically hear him gritting his teeth.

He's the only one I respond to, sending him a message that says 'fuck off kermit.' The nickname drives Smith insane, reminding him of the failed attempt to dye part of his hair green when we were younger.

The next stone I pick up is in no way a good skipping stone. It looks more like a ball of dicks all mashed into a small yellowish ball than anything else. I flick it into the water regardless, watching as water splashes when it lands.

"God, Sjin. Why do you have to be at your stupid going-away party? Why can't you be here with me?" I lay back on the ground, putting my hands behind my head. The ground is uneven and something is digging into my back. I stare into the sky, thinking about all the great times Sjin and I had. When we'd be sitting in the treehouse doing nothing, Sjin curled up in my lap and leaning on my chest. When we'd skip school to hang out at this lake. Stealing beer from my dad and getting wasted after a few cans of the harder stuff.

But under skinned knees and the skid marks

Past the places where you used to learn

You howl and listen

Listen and wait for the

Echoes of angels who won't return

Driving around town, not ready to go home yet, I make my way past the school that made the last thirteen years of my life hell.The street lights start to turn on as the buildings cast shadows and hide the sun's last rays. Past the general store Sjin and I were going to break into just for the hell of it but didn't because a cop drove by and we got cold feet.

Eventually I go home, not even bothering with the front door when I get there. Instead I go around the back and into the small wooded area separating rows of houses from each other.

It doesn't matter that there's not much light illuminating the tree trunk, I've climbed up to the treehouse enough times I could do it in complete darkness. I was forced to once before, when the moon was obstructed by clouds and my dad was in one of his moods.