So, now i have a boyfriend. Great. I feel so awful.
I just got on my social media without my parents noticing.
I text Heath.
Heath, he is not my boyfriend. I love you, and only you. He told me to pay back to you. Forever loving you, Emma.
Glad he was online.
I know Em, i love you too, and that girl, she is just a friend. I can see you miss me.
Yes i do, more than you would imagine....
That was the last thing he said. I do not know if he will ever text me again, or if this was the last time. I love him. I wish he replied, why doesn't he?. Oopsie, my parents were about to see me. I quickly log out and delete the tab. I sigh.
Well Em, at least you did it.... That took courage.
I still don't know if i'm obsessed with him.....
I miss his smile, and the warmth of his hugs.
I go out for a walk again.
Liam is still there.
"Hey Liam, why are you still here?" He shrugged. "I don't know". I sit down.
"I have Facebook, what's yours?" He gives it to me.
"So we are dating". He says, "yeah, seems like it".
"Well, i have to go, text you tomorrow" i say. He waves and i leave again. Ugh.
I log on social media. I see a zilliom Liams, but i finally find mine.
I do not know why, but i feel like he isn't the right one for me. I want to see how this one gets though.
I add him, and go do my favorite thing. Stare at the ceiling. "You are beautiful ceiling" i joke.
I am such an unlucky person.
Can i sleep and never, EVER wake up?
Can i sleep and have Heath come wake me up?
Please?.
I log in to my social media.
I see a message, it is Natalie, another from Molly, and the other from Xiomara. It is a group.
@ itsnatubtchs: girls, don't you think Em is such a bitch?
@ hollymollyguacamole: yeah, but better that, she is a bragging bitch
@ xiomaraxoxo: ugh, i just can't think of her, she is such a diva! And i mean the bad one.
I decide to reply.
@ Em4evr: guys, why are you being so mean? What did i do to deserve this?
@ hollymollyguacamole: well, first of all, you were on national TV, then you become a student role model, then, that anti-tobacco contest, and then, you supposedly are, ahem, Ms. Antibullying.
@ xiomaraxoxo: yeah, u think u r much better than us
@ itsnatubtchs: i can see why Heath called u a bitch.
Someone gets in the conversation.
@ heathcmess: yeah Em, u r such a bitch!
I gasp. It is Heath.......
But then, i come up with a comeback.
@ Em4evr: that's not Heath. I know his username perfectly, did u guys think u could fool me? As if! I know him lots better than u'll ever will.
@ itsnatubtchs: uh, he lost his other account, he had to make a new one.
@ heathcmess: yes. I had too.
I roll my eyes.
@ Em4evr: oh yeah? Then why am i texting you on ur other account?
@ itsnatubtchs: OMG u fucking bitch, u do not have to know everything about him!
I notice Xiomara isn't online.
@ Em4evr: where is Xiomara BTW? I notice she is not online.
@ hollymollyguacamole: u hag, she does not need to obey u
@ Em4evr: see? I am much more educated than u r. At least i don't say bad words.....
@ heathcmess: oh, Emma, we all know u r scared of 'em
@ Em4evr: STOP CALLING ME EMMA! YOU ARE AN IMPOSTOR, XIOMARA! U ALL KNOW THAT HEATH, AND ONLY HEATH CAN CALL ME EMMA!.
@ itsnatubtchs: at least we can see ur not dumb.
I log off. What did i do? Why do they hate me?
Ugh, sometimes i feel like, everyone hates me, and whenever i say hi, they are all "ugh, really?".
I log in again.
@ Em4evr: are you there?
@ EatLiam: yes, why?
@ Em4evr: i need u n ur phone, go to our usual place now
@ EatLiam: kay, c ya there.
I log off and quickly go to our usual place. The corner of the street.
I find him. "Hey, what did you need?" "I need to call someone" "here" he lends me his phone. I dial the phone number. "Hello?" "Rick, it's Em. I need to talk to you".
"Okay" "so, you are still Heath's bro right?" "Of course" "okay, um did he call me a bitch?" "No, why would he?" "Natalie, Xiomara and Molly are telling me he did" "Em, he would never do such thing" "oh, well, thanks" "talk to him Em, he needs u". Huh? I give Liam a "please" look and he nods. I log into my account.
@ Em4evr: we gotta make stuff clear
@ heathnm4evr: what kind of stuff?
@ Em4evr: everything
@ heathnm4evr: oh, um, okay.
@ Em4evr: u just answer. 1) did u call me a bitch? 2) did u say u hate me? 3) do u really still love me or r u playing nice 4) have u had another girlfriend?
@ heathnm4evr: 1) No! 2) no! 3) i really do love u 4) no, just u n always u
@ Em4evr: k thx, love ya
I received other texts. Ugh, the girls.
@ hollymollyguacamole: who is that guy in that pic? He does not desrve u!
@ itsnatubtchs: yeah, he is too handsome, tell him not to waste his time
@ xiomaraxoxo: agree
@ Em4evr: yeah, i better not waste my time
Amd i logged off. "Thanks" i give Liam his phone. "Whenever" he scratches his neck. "I will walk you home.
While we are walking, i think. Who'd say i would find him? And i mean, it's BH, of course there are lots of cute guys here!. "So, how do you like Beverly Hills?" "I love it".
Did i mentioned i moved? So, first i was at Sacramento, but then i moved here. I suppose i didn't.
"Well, we are here" "thanks". He takes off, and i notice he lives next door.
Guys, i am really confused, do you guys think i am obsessed with him?
Please tell me what you think!
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Why? Why me?
Non-FictionI was happy, I was, for the first time, feeling happy. Until this happened. This is, a story based on real events, not invented. This is like my public diary. For more details about this story, read.
