Love Never Dies...a Mafia Love Story

ch 7

Shelby let's go. Its almost 8." Iris said. We had been studying since morning for the upcoming exams. I wanted to get awesome grades again. We hadn't uttered a word for 2 hours. I know I had to go home but I did not want to face Xavier. It has been 2 months since the day he proposed me and we did not talk or even look at each other. These 2 months I hadn't laugh at all or even talked to somebody like I used to with Xavier. I kind of missed him but that was distracting me from my studies and my focus.
"I know. Its fine if you want to leave. Ill be sitting till 9"
"Shelby your parents will be worried and even Xavier"
"can you stop teasing"I snapped
"ohkay but do you still have feelings for him?"
"Iris can you stop it. If I have I don't care I just want to concentrate on my life"
"Shelby do you know that why are you so special? Its because there are people like Xavier who love you like your aunts and you just think that their sentiments are some obstacle between your aims and your life."
"just study" I said holding back my tears.
After 2 hours
"madam the classes need to be closed"the peon came and asked us to leave.
"bye meet you tomorrow" I told Iris.
"Shelby its late and you will reach home at 11. Do you want me to drop you?"
"no its fine and.." I took out my phone "oh no..my phone's dead I don't know from how long" I caught an auto and left for home still engrossed in my book.
I opened the door and saw that everybody was asleep 'nobody even cares for me' I thought. I walked towards my room and opened it. Xavier was sitting on my bed with his face cupped in his hands.
"what are you doing here?" listening to me he shot up and hugged me.
"where were you? Its so late and couldn't you just call me? I could have come to pick you up"
"I was in college studying and I had Iris with me" I said pulling away coldly. "anyway you could have slept"
"no I can't and stop behaving like this" he pulled me and shouted. "you know that I love you. I cant sleep if you are not safe or at home. Your phone's dead. Do you have any idea how was I feeling and you tell me to sleep? No, I fuckin cant sleep without seeing you"
"I don't care cause I don't love you" somehow saying this my heart ached and looking at him in tears I fell like pulling him into a hug and showering him with kisses.
"I'm sorry" I just blurted out because I couldn't see him like that in pain.
"its fine" he said and went to his room. The whole night I kept on turning and twisting in my bed, I couldn't get rid of Xavier's painful face. Is that what is love? Am I meant for love? Even if my father did not care for me, he did...but why? My childhood, love, Xavier and my life all of it were rotating in my head. I did not know what was I supposed to do. I started crying and let everything flow. I had my career in front of me. Why did I let these things happen?
Just then Xavier came in "Shelby what's wrong why are you crying?"
"I am sorry. I am really very sorry."I cried and cried on his shoulders hugging him hard. He planted kisses on my forehead again and again to pacify me. "I have taken decisions on my own for myself and my life, there was nobody to handle me or support me. When you came life was easier everything seem sorted. I am very sorry. I got confused between you and my career"
"I love you" he said again and embraced me tightly.
"Don't ever hurt me" I said
"Never" he repeated "I love you"
"I love you too" I replied with a smile and kissed him on the cheek "I don't know whether this is right but I can't lose you. Is this what is love?"
"If this is what Eve felt for Adam then 'yes' it is" he wiped my tears still catching my hand.