How it Goes

Chapter 4: Thoughts

Kyungsoo's POV-

I got back to the hotel alone. Kai went to the gym with Sehun, Suho, and Xiumin. It was nice to have some alone time. I needed to work on my voice for Kcon tomorrow. I'd love make myself some tea but I don't know how to work the damn hot water maker. I started to do some vocal exercises when I heard Kai's ringer go off. He must've left his phone here. I picked it up- Taemin was calling. Do I pick it up? I decided to keep on practicing and let it go to voicemail. I did wonder what Taemin was calling for though.
About 20 minutes later a sweaty Kai walked in the room. I looked up at him.
" Hey, Taemin called. "
" Oh really?" He asked astonished. " Did you answer it?"
" Um no- is it serious?"
" Ah-" Kai stuttered. " It's gonna be okay."
" Should I be worried?" I asked. I was curious.
" No." He said sharply. I nodded.
" I need to call him back though. " He grabbed his phone and went in to the bathroom to talk alone. Why couldn't he say anything in front of me? Should I tell other members? I hope Kai is okay and this is strange- we always tell each other if something is wrong.

Ten minutes passed and he was still talking to Taemin. I hope everything's okay. There was so much I needed to do to prepare for tomorrow and the following two days. My mind was on Kai. I don't know why I was making a big deal about the call. I was acting stupid. I feel like I have a headache. I really felt like sleeping. I was so Jetlag. It's a thirteen hour difference. It's 6:30 A.M in Seoul right now. Most of the members have learned how to sleep whenever and wherever. I'm terrible at it. Kai's pretty good at it, I mean he can sleep anywhere. It's kinda funny. Why do I keep thinking about him?! Kyungsoo snap out of it!
He's been in the bathroom for a while now though. I didn't hear any voices coming from there either. The whole room was silent. I was worried. I decided to go check on him.
I opened the bathroom door to see Kai curled up on the floor laying sideways with his face buried in his hands. My heart started to throb. I've never felt this way about Kai before. He was Jongin. My best friend. Seeing him like this created a whole new feeling. It's not like I haven't seen him like this before though. I've seen so much worse. But for some reason now- I fell this way. I realized I was just standing there in shock and not doing anything. I knelt down to him.
"Kai? Are you okay?" I pulled his hands off his face and I saw it was red. He was crying.
"Kai?!" He didn't look into my eyes. I shook him. He didn't move a muscle.
"Speak to me!" He wouldn't answer. "Fine! I won't care for you!" I was angry. I stood up and went back to the bedroom. What was wrong with him? I then tuned around at the sound of soft footsteps. I saw Kai staring at me. I stood up and threw my arms around him. He hugged me back passionately. His head was on my shoulder. I could feel his tears slowly falling down his face and on to my shirt.
" Kyungsoo." He whispered under his breath. " Oh Kyungsoo."
I hugged him harder. We stayed that way for a while.