How it Goes

Chapter 14

Kyungsoo's POV-

    The week at home has been going by fast and my normal day pretty much consisted of waking up late, making breakfast, and then I would show Kai movies all afternoon. He enjoyed them. It made me so happy. I loved watching him react to all the plot twists and crazy endings. I just wanted to snuggle him. I've been trying to be cute around him. "Flirt." What does that even mean? Yesterday we watched this horror movie and when the man came out of the mirror I covered my head in his chest. Little does he know, I've seen this movie 6 times so I wasn't scared at all. That night started to dream about things in my mind that you dream about when you have a big crush. I've never had those dreams before.

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    I woke up the next morning suddenly to a loud crashing noise coming from the kitchen. I jumped out of bed and ran in there to find Jongin holding his foot and pinching his face.
    " Shit!" He mumbled.
" Are you ok?" I asked.
    " Um...yes I just dropped a pan on my foot."
" I knelt down and picked up the pan off the floor. "
    " Do you need ice? I'll get some for you." I said frantically.
" Uh sure that'd be great." He was still holding his foot wincing from the pain.
    " What are doing up before 11?" I asked reaching in the freezer for an ice pack.
    " Oh I'm meeting Taemin."
" This early?"
" He has a shoot in the early afternoon so I had to see him early." He explained.
" Oh ok well have fun." I said. I felt happy he was seeing him, but I wanted to spend the morning with him. I was gonna make him breakfast. I need to get it out of my head though. He doesn't like me and if I confess I'll make everything weird. I just don't know what to do even though it's driving me absolutely insane. I want to pull all my hair out.
I must've been in a gaze,( like I always am) because he just left. I started to walk to my room when I noticed Chanyeol and Baekhyun walk to the kitchen together. They were smiling and giggling to each other, which always seems to be the case with them.
" Hey hyung." I said to Baekhyun as he walked passed me to look in the fridge.
" Oh hey. "
" Can I talk to you guys about something?" I asked.
" Uh sure." Chanyeol mumbled.
I'm just gonna say it.
" I think... I think I like Jongin."
Chanyeol's eyes opened wider and gave Baekhyun a look.
" Oh uh, really?" Baekhyun stuttered.
" Look I know it's kind of strange I'm telling you this, but I know you two are together and I needed to talk about it to someone."
Chanyeol shook his head and looked at Baekhyun again.
" Wait what? How did you know? Did Jongin tell you?" He said almost looking worried.
" No. I saw signs."
Baekhyun raised his eyebrow and stared at Chanyeol who looked like he was .star struck or something.
" Um. Ok. Have you told anyone?" Baekhyun asked in a worried tone, " about us?"
" Oh of course not!" I said.
They looked at each other again worried.
" Please don't worry. It'll be fine. No one will know." I tried breaking the tension.
" Things can happen though Kyungsoo." Baekhyun said.
" But nothing will. I promise. Jongin nor I wouldn't tell anyone and you know that."
Chanyeol looked at Baekhyun and sighed.
" We know."
" So you think you like Jongin?" Baekhyun asked trying to change the atmosphere of the conversation.
" Yeah. A lot. I need help like I don't know what to do."
" I don't know what to say. I never knew you liked guys." Chanyeol said.
"I didn't either."
" It's ok neither did I" Baekhyun said reaching for Chanyeol's hand.
" I'd say - Just find the right time to confess. If you see the signs that he has feelings for you just do it."
"Or you know we could talk to him for you." Chanyeol said slyly.
" What no! None of that please!" I said pinching his cheek.

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Kai's POV-

I waited outside of Taemin's dorm looking at my phone checking my texts to see if he called. He was supposed to meet me out here five minutes ago. He's not late. Ever. I knocked on the door.
"Tae?"
I tried calling him again but it declined as soon as I pressed call which probably means his phone is dead. Dammit. Taemin where are you? I heard a door click which made me jump.
"Oh Jongin?"
It was Minho.
"Oh ok. Um-" I stuttered.
"Are you looking for Taemin?"
"I am. Is he home? He's was supposed to meet me here with coffee 10 minutes ago."
" Oh well... he left last night around 10 and he's not home. I don't think he came home."
My stomach turned. Oh my god. Oh. My. God. What the fuck is he doing.
I was just staring at the floor when I realized I should probably respond.
" Oh ok thanks. Do you know if he's been ok? Like if he's seen his brother?" I asked.
"I don't know he hasn't been telling us much at all latley. He seemed pretty opposed to seeing him."
" I know."
Where the hell is he.
"Are you worried about him? Like what he could be doing right now?" I asked.
"We all are. We know he's not stable right now."
Listening to his words made me feel worse. Before my eyes started to water and my cheeks started to puff I said a quick thank you and walked away quickly biting my lip to pain the pain hurt more on the outside than the inside. All so could think in my head was, oh Jongin you fucked up. He fucked up. You should've watched him. Checked on him more. He could be anywhere doing anything and you trusted him? I can't believe I thought he was really doing ok. That call. He made it seem so clear he was ok. But he's not and I knew that deep inside but I wanted to believe him so badly so I went with it. But I can't do that. Not right now.
I need to look for him. I need to. He's not reaching me. He won't answer my calls or texts. I'm so worried and overflowing with different feelings of anger. I ran back to our apartment, swung the door open and ran into my room. I found D.O sitting on the beanbag chair watching something on his phone and his eyes half way looked at me as I walked in.

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Kyungsoo's POV-
He stumbled in past me and went to his room.
" Hey how'd it go?" I asked. Although I could already tell things didn't go well.
I walked in his room where he was pacing around his desk shoving things around frantically.
"Jongin! What the hell are you doing!" I saw his face and it looked very puffy.
"I have to look for him I have to!" He was crying.
" What? What do you mean?" I asked trying to stay calm.
" He wasn't there! He let last night and didn't come back! I need to know where he is! I need to help him. I shouldn't have trusted that he was ok. I so fucking dumb!!
He then slapped him self in the face and sulked over his desk crying. It's so hard to see him like this. I want to cry too.
" I could've helped him. But I didn't. I could've been there for him but I wanted to think he was ok! I just ca-"
I then grabbed him and pressed my lips into his making him silent. For some reason now felt like the right time to do this. I pulled away though.
" Jongin I'm so-"
" No,no it's okay" He said as he kissed me again making me weak to fall on the bed behind me. We kissed for awhile. I could feel his heart beating on top of me. He then stopped and just looked into my eyes. His eyes were still watering and a tiny tear dropped onto my face that was inches away from his. He wiped it off my face and laid down next to me with his heat on my chest. Then I intertwined my hands into his which is something I've been wanting to do for a long time.