How it Goes

Chapter 12: Butterflies

Kai's POV-
    I woke up and we're still on the plane. Dammit- I was hoping I'd sleep till landing. But it was light out so we must be almost home. I looked out the window and it kind of looked like we were on our dissent to land. Kyungsoo was still asleep and for some reason my gaze went directly to Chanyeol and Baekhyun. Chanyeol was awake with Baekhyun asleep on his lap. I wanted to ask him about his relationship. I just want to be there for him if he's scared that the public will find out. Maybe I'll text him. Just bring it up casually.

Kai- Hey I want to talk to you about something.
Chanyeol- yeah?
Kai- so I can tell u and Baek have a thing going on

I looked up from my phone to see his reaction. He turned his head to me with a worried look on his face.

Kai- I was just wondering why you didn't tell me
Chanyeol- its complicated Jongin
Kai- ok. I just thought maybe you'd tell me.
Chanyeol- you don't understand if our managers find out they would get angry with us
Kai- I would keep your secret though. And you and Baek aren't the only couple
Chanyeol- i trust you but it's too risky. I love him too much. You don't understand. We've liked eachother for awhile and we questioned actually dating countless amounts of times. But fuck it. We did. And we're so happy. But anyway yes-  I'm not risking anything. And I know we aren't but they keep it a secret too.
Kai- that's terrible. I hate that you have to feel that way about our managers knowing about you two. They should be accepting.
Chanyeol- that's just how it is. And I don't think they have any thing against us dating but it's the fact that if the public funds out the group will get hate and shit and people won't like it.
Kai- well some people. Did you know that there are EXO ships?
Chanyeol- Wait really that's awesome!
Kai- yeah and like Kyungsoo and I were shipped together?
Chanyeol- that's cute. I think we're about to land I'll text u later-

    I looked over to see Kyungsoo just waking up.
" Hey." He said. His hair was all messed up from being squished up against the wall of the plane. I have to admit it was kinda cute.
    " Hey- you sleep ok?" I asked.
" Alright."
    " We're gonna land soon." I looked out the window to find we were very close to the ground. Kyungsoo nodded.
    " Home." He whispered under his breath.

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Kyungsoo's POV-
    We landed, got our bags and got into the bus to take us home. I was so excited I almost felt butterflies. I started think about Kai and yesterday. The thoughts and feelings started to pour themselves into my mindset. I looked over at him next to me. He was listening to music and not paying attention at all so I just stared at him. His face. His squishy cheeks. His heart shaped lips that I wish I could kiss. His soft hands I wish I could squeeze and his beautiful body I wish I could hold. Oh god. Kyungsoo calm yourself. Out of the corner his eye he saw me in a trance. I looked away quickly while blushing but tuning my head slightly to see him blush and smile.

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Kai's POV-
    As soon as we got to our dorm I pulled out my phone to call Taemin. I couldn't wait another second to know what he was gonna say.

Kai-Hello?
Taemin- Hey is it you this time?
Kai-Yes it's me. Kyungsoo told me about your call yesterday.
Taemin-Well good. I just wanted to say Hanwoo called.
Kai- Oh my gosh! Really? What did he say?
Taemin- Well his friend Winhyo just got in a car accident.
Kai- oh my-
Taemin- So he called and he was in tears. It made me cry immediately. I haven't heard his voice in so long. He said " I need you Taemin I have no one now. They all left me. I fucked up too many times."
He was crying just talking about it
Kai- o-oh- oh my god. Will u see him?
Taemin- He says he wants to see me. He says he wants to earn back his worth and all that shit.
Kai- you don't seem happy about it Tae-
Taemin- Well it's just after all he's done after all he's hurt me and my family and then he just acted like he could run away from his problems! We never got any word from him for 4 months and then one day he calls me and says his friend died and we should meet for lunch? I'm a little confused on how to feel I mean it's like he just expects me to be like " ok cool! Yeah it's okay I forgive you and let's meet tomorrow at 3-" No it's not like that! And I can't really-
He starts to cry again
I can't really process anything at the moment. What should I do?
I didn't know how to help him. I wanted to but I didn't know what to say at all.
Kai- I think you should see him. He wants to fix this.
Taemin- and how will he do that huh? He's still messed up inside I could tell. He's not better. He's not fine. He'll never be because he set himself up in a way where not even the ones that love him most can understand and forgive him. He's become a total stranger Jongin.
Kai- You need do what you need to do okay? I bet it's really hard to take in but he wants to try. Now how are you doing?
Taemin- Ya know what- I've opened my eyes. I don't miss him and I don't want any part of him. He's hurt us so badly I don't even want to think about him.
I could tell he was trying to be strong in his voice but I know him. I know he's fighting back tears. I know he still loves and cares for him. He just needs to accept it.
Kai- Ok well I think you need to take care of yourself and do what's best for you and your family. Listen I needa unpack and change but I wanna meet up with you soon okay?
Taemin- Yes let's do that. I'll talk to u tomorrow.
Kai- ok stay strong.

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I got off the phone and sighed. I don't know how to talk to him right now. He's just not the same. I don't want to think about that topic. I felt so distracted from him on the phone. I was thinking about what Chanyeol said in his text. Those words rung in my head- " We're so happy." I don't know why that got to me but it did. It made me think of Kyungsoo and the feelings I've been having for him. I walked into my bedroom and ploped into my bed. I should read.
    " Hey Jongin!" I heard Kyungsoo say from the other side of the wall. We technically share a room but there is a small wall that splits it.
    " Yeah?"
" Can u help me?"
    I got out of bed and walked over to his side.
" What do you need?" I asked.
    " I got a cut on my back."
" What how'd you do that with a shirt on?"
    " I was changing and I scraped my back on a nail that was poking out of the wood frame. ( a/n- Kyungsoo has a painting in his room with a wood work frame) I put a shirt on because it didn't hurt that much but when the fabric touched it it hurt really bad. Can you get a wet wash cloth from the bathroom?" He asked.
    " Yeah sure." I came out with the wet wash cloth dripping onto the wood floor.
" Um so do want me to blot it to clean it up or something?"
    " Yeah if you can."
I nodded.
    " Where is the cut?"
" Below my shoulder blades kinda." He said.
    " I lifted up the back of his shirt slowly. It wasn't awkward but I got butterflies in my stomach and that feeling came back. We're my hands shaking? I traced my fingers up his back to try and find the cut.
    " Kuyngsoo that's- ooh- uh kinda bad."
" Really?"
    " I'll get a big bandaid." 
" Thanks."
    " Can you hold your shirt up while I put it on?"
" Would taking it off just be easier?" He asked.
    " Uh um sure." I said. The feeling got even stronger and even though I've seen him shirtless many times, now I noticed every detail. He was beautiful but so squishy. I just wanted to hug him tight. What am I saying- Jongin put the band aid on already.
    " There your good now."
" Thank you." He said putting his shirt back on.
    I walked back to my room and a big smile started to form on my face and my body felt all tingly. Oh Jongin what the hell have you gotten yourself into.

A/N- Sorry for the really long chapter... Hope you liked it though!