How it Goes

Chapter 10: I think I Do?

Kyungsoo's POV-

We got back to the hotel late after picking up some sandwiches at a 24 hour deli near by. I was so excited to go home. We finally get to go home tomorrow morning. We have a week of nothing and then then EXO 'r dium. I'm excited for a break. We need one. I also need a shower because I literally smell like Chanyeols underwear drawer and I don't think anyone wants to know that story.
Kai and I were just laying on our beds on our phones and I got up to take a shower.
" Ugh I needa shower too." He whined when he saw me walk towards the bathroom.
     " You can wait."
I was so gross. I felt like shit. Once I felt the cold water touch my face my mood changed immediately. I took my time. Sorry Kai. After about 15 minutes I stepped out.
    " Your good to go!" I said from the bathroom. I walked out to the room to find him sprawled out on his bed asleep. I rolled my eyes. I don't blame him though. We have to be up in 6 hours to get on a plane. However, he smelled so bad so I will wake him. I shook his shoulder and he grunted.
    " You smell gross. Take a shower." I whispered into his ear.
He looked at me for awhile. I didn't turn away.
    " Fine." He said slowly getting out of bed.
" It'll feel good I promise!" I reassured him.
    I was so tired so I hopped into my bed and turned out the lamp immediately falling into sleep.
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    I was felt a hand on my shoulder.
" Hyung. It's time. " Kai whispered.
     I forced myself to open my eyes.
" Is it 5 yet?" I asked. He nodded.
" We need to be on the bus in 15 minutes so get dressed."
" How are you up before I am?" I asked getting out of bed.
" I couldn't sleep."
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We got on the bus and nobody talked. Many were asleep. I couldn't wait to get home. I felt Kai's head rest on my shoulder. He was smiling but asleep. I tickled his nose. He didn't even move. A phone rang. Was that Kai's? I think so. I checked in his back pack and it was. It was Taemin. Should I answer it? Should I wake Kai? I'll just answer it.
" Hello?"
" Hey! Jongin?"
" Hi this is Kyungsoo."
" Oh hey! How are you all?"
" We are fine. Tired though. You?"
" I'm doing okay. Can I talk to Kai?"
" Oh well he's sleeping. We're on a bus. He said he couldn't sleep last night so I don't really wanna wake him. I mean I can though if it's urgent."
" Oh no that's fine I just needed to tell him some news."
What news??
" Oh okay well I'll have him call u when we land. "
" Thank you Kyungsoo. And just wondering is Kai okay?"
" Uhh what do you mean?" I asked.
" He's happy?"
" I think so. I hope so."
" Good. I'm glad to hear that."
There was a pause. Should I tell him he's worried about you? No. No I can't do that because Kai wasn't supposed to tell me about him in the first place.
" Ok cool well I'm almost to the airport so I'm gonna let ya go."
" Ok thanks Kyungsoo. "

That was a little awkward. Although he was cheerful sounding. I'll tell Kai that and that'll really make him happy.

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We lugged ourselves onto the plane as the sun just started to peak up. I really hope I can sleep. Kai was practically walking half asleep with his head on my shoulder. We loaded the plane and I saw a Chanyeol hugging Baekhyun from behind with his head on his shoulder. Did anyone notice? Probably not we were all pretty much sleep walking. I took my seat with Kai still glued to my shoulder. It was kinda cute. Sure enough Chanyeol and Baekhyun sat right next to us. Ugh. I don't know why but I feel so weird seeing them together now. Even if they're just walking side by side not even talking. I hate my own thoughts. I wish I could escape from myself honestly.
Starting to drift off I was shook by the plane starting to move. I looked around to find everyone asleep besides me, Chan, and Baek. They were huddled together watching something on Baekhyun's phone. They were softly giggling to themselves and then they kissed. How they kissed. I wanted to look away. Something about it made me feel a certain way. Was I jealous? No. But how? Like I've been feeling so emotionally connected with Kai lately but I don't have feelings for him. What? What am I even thinking right now. I need to sleep. There was something about him though. Something that makes me always want to look at him and care for him. I feel like I want to take care of him and and squish his little cheeks untill they turn red. And when he asked me to cuddle and comfort him I felt so connected and aghhhh I don't know how to describe it but whatever I'm feeling just feels like it about to burst. Oh shit what am I even saying. Kyungsoo? Do I have have feelings for..... Jongin?
I've never liked a boy before! This is so weird. I don't even know what I want to do with this feeling but I think I like him. But I don't want to believe it because I actually don't understand how I feel right now. I need to breathe it's been like 3 minutes. If I can hold my breathe that long on land could I do it underwater? Maybe I'm a mermaid. Calm down Kyungsoo. What the hell am I thinking. I really need sleep. My mind is spinning and I have butterflies in my stomach. I look over at Kai on my shoulder. I smiled at him. I don't even know what I'm feeling but something about it made me want to just nuzzle my head into his chest and fall asleep. Why do I feel this way? I just rested my head on his and started to drift off to sleep with a huge smile on my face not thinking but just purely smiling.