Don't Hate Me (Larry Stylinson AU)

Chapter 3

A LITTLE BIT OF DIRTY STUFF AHEAD.

JUST A WARNING.😉😉

Okay so lets go on with it .!!

Harry's P.O.V

I caught myself staring at him for a really long while. I didn't know what happen to me in the hint of moment but I felt a aching pang in my heart. It was something different ....something I've never expirenced before. I-I donno what I felt.....But I hated this...feeling this way. All butterfying and tingling. But the most important issue here was..... I couldn't take my eyes off his blue ones. My stomach felt like someone was crumbling it. I didn't like being this was......

What was this?

Whats wrong with me??

I broke my gaze looking down at my own feet still sensing his eyes boring into me.

At that moment itself I knew, this boy would not be the reason why I'm feeling like this. He gave me these unfamiliar feelings which I repulse the most.

He looked back when someone called his name.

Louis.

His name was Louis.

I took the chance of the moment and walked out of the school with zayn. As fast as I could because I panicked. He was not a she for me to want but I still did. I was almost loosing my breath thinking of him again and again. Louis.

The name suit him. He was perfect for the name....

God....This is ridiculous.

Zayn sensed something was wrong, even I could tell something was really awry about me. The way I was hesitating to do everything. To open the door of my car, drinking water, hell I couldn't even remove my shoes properly when I entered the house. My hands were all sweaty and my mind was so dizzy. My whole brain was fogged up with the visions of those celestial blue eyes. I couldn't think about anything else but those eyes. I was sweating and was on the verge of throwing up.

I wanted a boy. I wanted a boy. I wanted a Boy. I wanted a boy.

Constantly playing in my head, it was almost unbearable.

"You alright mate?" Zayn asked me worried.

"Y-Yeah. Just feel a bit dizzy." I answered him as he nodded.

I was sitting on my bed with zayn, smoking weed. The house was empty, as usual. Mom and Gemma both are out doing the shit they do always. They don't live here most of the days anyway. Its better if they don't. All the time, all they do is nag me, hell at me and make me do things I hate the most

I took a drag and started to think instead of forget. I wasn't sure if everything was alright or not. But I couldn't let zayn know about these sudden wierd emotions I feel. He would consider me weak and I could let That happen. No fucking way. I am not weak.

I left being weak long ago. The weak in me died. But then there was this new boy. Louis. Oh god....

I just..  Felt so under pressure, with Evert drag I took, I remembered what he actually looked like. He was like-like a....

God he was beautiful.

What was happening to me?

I wasn't gay for sure. I can't be, no I'm not. I know it. No no no...IM NOT!!

Why was I feeling like this?

Its all his fault.

NO,NO. I am alright. Its just Louis, who's wierd. He is the reason why I feel this way. Its his fault that I have to question myself, to reconsider my myself. I Can't let this happen. I can't let myself go through these sickening emotions.