Don't Hate Me (Larry Stylinson AU)

Chapter 18

I know its been a while. But I don't know I have this weird habit to update during my exams.

Anyway...I'm stupid.

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Louis' P.O.V

I woke up to an empty bed next day, cold and alone. I wanted to snuggle into Harry, feel his warmth and heat but he wasn't there. I saw in the clock, it was 6:00 am, may be he was getting ready for school. I got up and headed down yawning on my way. The whole house felt so empty and silent as if there was no one in this house but me.

I went into the kitchen looking for Harry but saw the note kept there.

Left early for school, had my footie practice. See you there.

Harry x

I pouted and got ready for school

I wasn't sure if Harry was alright, emotionally. After his breakdown last night it was difficult to tell how he'd behave. He could be really snappy sometimes.

We Were now dating for almost six months, seven a week after and I was undoubtedly in love with him. Thinking about him always made me smile, how he filled up some of those incomplete gaps of my life. Yes he gave me pain but it was nothing compared to what I had faced and if being with Harry mean suffering from that brief amount of pain then so be it because as much as it hurt me, it gave me happiness in millions. I could have never expected to have someone like him in my life, he cared for me so much. The fact that made me never leave him was it seemed as if only I could make him smile. He would never look at anyone the way he looks at me. Its something different, I always blush under his intense gaze. Whenever we made love it was so magical like I never wanted it to end, I wanted to put a halt to the time when he held me in his arms, tucked my sweaty fringe behind my ear and kisses my forehead saying I love you. It was like an explosion of butterflies in my belly, my heart fluttering everything he said those words which I have awaited for so long.

Ever since my mom pushed me away, it was as if I was dead in the inside but now I had a reason to smile, reason to be happy, reason to live. It still hurt so much to have those memories of my family back. The girls, mom everyone I've loved all my life. How they never gave a second thought to throw me out. Did they know where I was? Did they even care? I pushed the thoughts away before I could tear up, didn't want to go to school with a tear stained face, I didn't want to give anyone a reason to pick on me again.

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     I wave of negativity hit me when I entered the school premises. Everyone was staring at me as usual with their disgusted faces towards me. I've learned to bare them now, it was pure torture of me at first. It was like every student and teacher hated me, shooting me their weirded looks and dirty slurs. I was shoved into walls so randomly, literally everywhere. And I had to take it because may be I.....I deserved it. It was still painful to earn peoples glares and taunts, get their hate when all I've done is just be myself.

If the school at doncaster was jail then this was a torturous prison. Nobody cared for me and nobody showed me mercy for my being. I was still bullied and beaten but now they back off and stay away as if I was some sort of disease. Liam still talks to me but he has complete different classes except some one or two. We meet at home and he generally does homework and extra crediting work while I study and go to sleep. I've stayed at Harry's place a lot of times telling Liam lies about my job. Working at the bar was still hard for me, majority of the students from school came there and they refused to let me serve the drinks or anything for that matter. My manager is fed up of it and he too is disgusted by me being gay, he found up a month ago when a guy from our school addressed me as a fag. I winced at the memory of it, it was a horrible day.