Don't Let Me Go (SEQUEL TO CMM)

Chapter 1

Niall's POV

"Dada!" I groaned and turned around. "Dada!!" My body shook and I turned around again, squinting my eyes open to see Tom with a tear streaked face. "Dada!" He whimpered.

"What's wrong Tommy?" I looked at the clock to see it was midnight.

"I had a scary dream dada". I sighed and pulled the covers up, letting him climb up and settle himself next to me. He continued to move until he was lying on my stomach and fell asleep. I looked to my side to see the bed was empty and frowned. I rubbed Tom's back soothingly as I watched him sleep. Louis has been missing a lot around midnight lately. I don't know where he's been going but I'm beginning to worry. I'm afraid we'll get in a fight if I ask him about it so I haven't mentioned it. Tom calls me dada and Louis papa, which Max had also picked up so we're no longer daddy Ni and daddy Lou. I think I like dada better, although Daniel doesn't call us that of course. He usually just looks at the one he's talking to and says dad. That simple. He's been a pain lately, going into puberty and all but I've been living. He can see how Louis is rarely home anymore. He can see how tired and exhausted I am. He tries to help me sometimes but I tell him not to worry about it and just go out with his friends. I don't want to be that parent that uses his own child, preventing him from going out with friends just because I'm tired. I just have to deal with it.

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"Dada!"

"Shh boys he's sleeping come on I'll make breakfast". I listened as the door closed and opened my eyes to see it was six in the morning. Just lovely. I wonder if Louis only just got home. I got out of bed and walked down the hall to Daniel's room. I rolled my eyes as I saw him still sleeping indicating Louis forgot to wake him yet again.

"Daniel? Buddy it's time to get up". He groaned and opened his eyes slightly. "It's six".

"Why didn't he wake me up? Why do you always do it?" I didn't know whether to take it as a good or bad way but he instantly cleared that up. "I mean, you should be sleeping right now. You shouldn't be worrying about me in the mornings". I sat on the edge of his bed and sighed.

"I don't know Daniel. Just get ready for school yeah?" He nodded and I left the room to go downstairs. The boys were in the lounge room playing with blocks and Louis was no where to be seen. "Boys? Where's papa?"

"Papa say he be back". Tom shrugged and continued to play. "Dada, papa did not change my..my..I wet dada". I instantly understood what Tom was saying and picked him up, taking him upstairs to his room as Daniel ran down stairs to the kitchen.

"Hey Tommy!" Daniel shouted over his shoulder. I changed Tommy's diaper and dressed him in his small blue jeans and t shirt, taking him back downstairs to see Louis in the kitchen. I put Tom in his high chair and walked over to the pantry, instantly feeling arms wrap around my waist and wet kisses along my neck.

"Good morning baby". He nibbled on my earlobe and I held in a moan.

"Louis stop". His grip immediately left me and he looked at me confused and hurt. "Daniel are you ready to go?" Daniel grabbed his bag and Louis grabbed his keys, walking out the door. He knows there's something wrong because I called him by his full name. I never do.

"BYE DAD!" Daniel shouted as he exited.

"MAX! Come here buddy". Max came running in with his dinosaur teddy. He's become obsessed with it completely. Tom has become obsessed with his stuffed panda. I don't know why we got Daniel from the age he was. I liked having little kids running around with their stuffed toys, their thumbs in their mouth and being called dada or daddy Ni. Daniel never did any of that. He was too old for all that. "Are you hungry?"

"No!" He went to run back to the blocks but I caught him and threw him up in the air, catching him as he giggled.

"Did you just say no to dada?" He chuckled and I tickled his sides.

"Dada stop! Dada". He broke into fits of giggles and I set him down in a chair at the table.

"Toast or cereal boys?"

"Pops! Me want pops dada!" Tom screeched and I grabbed the coco pops.

"Max?"

"I want jam toast dada".

"Alright". I cooked the toast and spread the jam, cutting it in half and cutting the crust off, handing it to Max and fixed Tom's cereal, and began feeding him. I finished feeding Tom and began doing the dishes as they ran off to play.

"Dada". I jumped and dropped the plate I was washing in the sink. "Dada why isn't papa home anymore?" I dried my hands with a tea towel and picked Max up, taking him back into the lounge room. I knew he'd notice how Louis is rarely home anymore soon. I just didn't expect him to notice this soon.

"How about a movie boys?" They nodded eagerly and I put Finding Nemo on, their favourite movie at the moment. I lay on the couch and they lay on me. I almost fell asleep when I heard a knock on the door. The boys jumped off me and ran to the door. "Boys remember what I said about answering the door!"

"Who is it!?"

"It's uncle Liam!" They opened the door and jumped on Liam, almost making him fall over.

"Hey Li".

"What's going on Ni?" We walked back in the lounge room and the boys took out some more toys to play with. "You look absolutely exhausted". I shrugged and slumped back on the couch. "What is it?" I watched the boys play, making sure they weren't paying attention.

"Louis isn't really home, and Daniel has offered to help me so many times but he's 15. He's supposed to go out with his friends not help his dad because he's struggling. So I tell him to just go out. But Louis just is never here. Even at midnight if I'm woken up by one of the boys he's not in bed. He just leaves and I don't know where he's going".

"He just disappears?" I shrugged.

"I suppose you could say that".

"He's your husband Niall. He should be telling you why he's doing that".

"I've been too scared to bring it up".

"Niall he's not treating you right. You need to talk to him".

"I will".

"Do you promise?" I shrugged.

"Dada! Dada look!" I looked at Max's block tower and smiled.

"Wow! That's cool! Did you make that?" He nodded and Tom knocked it over, trying to get my attention. Max hit Tom and they both started screaming. I picked up Tom and he rest his head in my neck. "Max you don't hit people!"

"HE BROKE MY BUILDING! DADA YOU PROUD OF ME AND HE BREAK IT!"

"That doesn't make it okay to hit people!"

"Niall do you pro-"

"Does this really look like the time Liam!?" I snapped. He got up and walked towards the door.

"I'm sorry Niall, just call me if you need me".

"No shit li-"

"DADA NO! BAD WORD!" Max hit my bad knee hard and I almost tumbled over with Tom in my arms.

"Max! What did I just say!?" The front door closed and I sighed. "Max go to your room".

"No!"

"NOW MAX!"

"NO!" I grabbed his arm and pulled him up the stairs, trying not to fall. I got him in his room and he sobbed.

"Think about what you did wrong then apologise". I closed his door and locked it, trying to calm Tom down. "Shh please stop crying Tommy please baby for me". I kissed his hair. "It's okay. Where does it hurt?" Max screamed and hit his door for me to let him out but I just walked to Tom's room. "I think it's nap time". I rocked him in my arms until he stopped crying and carefully lay him in his bed. I closed the door and went back downstairs, collapsing on the couch. Why must this be so hard? What is Louis up to?

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