Don't Let Me Go (SEQUEL TO CMM)

Chapter 11

* 1 week later *

Niall's POV

"This is our house". I examined the creamy white walls, the cream carpeted stairs that slightly curved at the top, the photo frames and kids paintings and drawings on the walls. I followed Louis into the lounge room and sat on the couch, examining the shaggy brown rug on the floor and plasma on the wall. Louis sat next to me, carefully pulling me into him so I leant against his chest.

"It's beautiful". Louis hummed and pressed his lips to my hair. "I love you". I could feel him smile against my hair.

"I love you too. Do you remember anything?" I frowned and shook my head.

"Nothing. I feel terrible. I don't remember my own children". I began to cry and Louis sat up, making me face him and taking my face in his hands.

"Hey, it's okay. Daniel understands".

"But what about Max and Tom? They looked so heartbroken when I didn't know who they were".

"Let's not talk about that right now, okay?" I nodded. "I've missed you". I smiled slightly.

"Lou, what were our days like?" He hesitated and jumped when his phone started ringing. I grabbed it from the coffee table and frowned. "Who is Tyler?" He quickly grabbed my phone and ignored the call.

"It's no one".

"Why are you hiding things from me?" I frowned and he shook his head.

"I'm not".

"Then who is Tyler?" Daniel rushed through the front door, into the lounge room, grabbing Louis and threw his fist to his face. I gasped. "Daniel! Why did you do that!?"

"He told you we were a happy family yeah?" I frowned at his outburst. "Well we're not. He was never home and always on his phone. We weren't happy! You were exhausted! You were upset! And now there's a photo of him kissing a student going around my school!" I looked at Louis, questioningly and he looked up to me with sad eyes.

"Y-you cheated on me?"

"No! I would never do that! I lo-" he reached out for me but I pulled away.

"I can't believe you! You said we were happy!"

"Do you really think I would do such a thing!?"

"He just said there's a photo!" A sudden memory came back to me and I sat back down on the couch.

"Dad? Are you okay?"

"I remember. I remember us fighting. I was crying and you walked out".

"That's it? That's all you remember!?"

"Yes?"

"I can't believe THAT'S the thing you remember!"

"I'm trying Louis".

"Well you're not trying hard enough!" I just looked at him with hurt.

"You cheated on me and you're yelling at me about memory!?"

"I didn't!" I could see his cheek starting to bruise.

"People don't just make stuff like that up Louis. I can't believe you would do this to me". I was pushed aside hard and felt a blinding pain in my left side before everything went black.

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"When dada wake now? He sleep so much papa!" I smiled from the familiar voice and opened my eyes. Tom was sitting beside me and I pulled him into a hug.

"Hey Tommy".

"DADA! You remember!" My head was pounding again and I frowned.

"You fainted and hit your head". I nodded and ran my fingers through Tom's soft hair. "So you remember everything?" I frowned at Louis.

"What? No".

"But then why did you hug Tommy?"

"Dada not know me still? Dada not want to hug me? Not remember Tommy?" Tom slid off me and began to whimper.

"Good job Louis. Bloody brilliant".

"Niall I'm sorry".

"Why don't you just leave Louis. I don't want to see you". He looked at me with shock and I turned my attention back to Tom, trying to comfort him and stop him from crying. "I'm trying Tom. I'm trying to remember. I will". Tom soon calmed down and I lay him down for a nap, locking the bathroom door and looking at myself in the mirror. Why would Louis cheat on me? Was what Daniel said true? All of it? Were we really not happy? Why can't I just remember? I feel terrible that I don't remember the boys. They're my kids and I have no idea on who they are. It breaks my heart seeing their hopeful gazes every morning on that I had just remembered them. I don't know what to do.

I looked down to my wrist and traced over the scars, moving to look in the cupboards for a razor. Once I succeeded on the piece of metal, I sat on the cold tiled floor against the wall and glanced between my wrist and the silver. Should I? Yes. But what if it's a mistake? It will make you feel better. What if it doesn't? It will. Is it worth it? Yes. Do it. You know you want to. No I don't. Imagine how good it will feel. Imagine the relief as the blood drains. Imagine the joyful sting you'll experience. Imagine how good it will feel. Do it.

I moved the piece of silver to my wrist and pushed it down, moving it across slowly. I let tears fall as I finished the cut and began a new one and another and another. I felt relief wash over me as I watched the blood slowly drop down my arm. I smiled to myself and dropped the blade, jumping as I heard a voice.

"Dad?"

Zayn's POV

"How do you think Niall is going with Lou?"

"I'm sure he's fine. He'll remember soon. I hope he does". I combed my fingers through Harry's curls and was shocked when I heard a knock on the door. I got up, groaning and walking to the front door, opening it to see Louis with a bruised cheek and tear streaked face.

"I've done something stupid".

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I know this is short.

But idk when the next update will be.

I've done three exams and still have three to go but I'll try!

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