Don't Let Me Go (SEQUEL TO CMM)

Chapter 13

Niall's POV

I looked to Daniel and the bloody cloths in his hands in panic.

"What were you doing in my room?" I got up and snatched them from him.

"That doesn't matter. What were you doing?"

"I'm the parent! I ask the questions!" I went to walk past him but he grabbed my wrist, pulling me back and making me hiss. I snatched my arm from his grasp.

"Dad what's going on".

"This is none of your business!" I snapped, walking back to the room and locking the door. I went back in the bathroom and took my place on the floor again. I wasn't finished before. Daniel stopped me. But I can continue now. I can create more pain. I can break more skin. No one can do anything. Maybe I'll remember if I punish myself. Maybe it will all come back to me. I broke my skin twice and began to create another cut when I heard a soft knock.

"Niall?" I moved the blade further. "Niall open the door". His knocking increased. "Niall baby please". I dropped the blade and let tears fall. "I'm so sorry Niall". He sighed. "I feel terrible about what I did. I love you so much Niall. Nothing and no one can ever change that. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way. I love you, and I will love you until the day I die, and if there's a life after that, I'll love you then". I let out a soft sob. "I love you, with no beginning, no end. I love you as you have become an extra necessary organ in my body. I love you. Without fear. Without expectations. Wanting nothing in return, except that you allow me to keep you here in my heart, that I may always know your strength, your eyes, and your spirit that gave me freedom and let me fly. For you see, each day I love you more, today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. I will never stop loving you Niall. You're my life, my voice and my reason to be. Without you, I'm nothing, I'm no one. I don't understand myself at times when I do such stupid things. When I thought I lost you, I didn't know what to do. Niall you're my world. Without you I feel empty. The day we got married, I knew I could never love anyone more. I could never imagine being with anyone else. I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Create a family. Grow old together and have grandchildren. Niall I will do anything for you to forgive me. Not right away but soon. In time. You're my sunshine. You not loving me hurts so much Niall. It feels like someone has ripped my heart out. Niall I love you. I love you more than anything on this earth. Niall you're my everything". I got up off the floor and opened the door, walking to the bedroom door and unlocking it, pulling it open and Louis fell back. He got up quickly and I chuckled lightly. I laughed slightly harder then began to sob again, Louis pulling me into a right hug and pulling me to sit on his lap on the bed. He kissed my temple and whispered sweet things in my ear like 'I love you' and 'you're beautiful' or 'don't cry sweetheart'.

"I c-can't l-lose y-y-you".

"You'll never lose me Ni". I pulled away slightly.

"Promise?" He kissed my nose.

"I promise". He pulled me to the bathroom, putting the toilet seat down and sat me on it, putting a hand towel under the tap and kneeling in front of me, lightly dabbing at my wrists. I kept my head hung low while he lightly wiped all the blood and occasionally kissed my hand. "Please don't do this again. Please baby". I kept my head down.

"Why did you come back?"

"Daniel rang me". I just nodded. "Niall, please don't hurt yourself again".

"I can't remember. I can't remember anything. You kissed someone else-"

"Niall please. I'm so sorry, okay? It was the biggest mistake I've ever made. I'm going to quit. I'm going to quit my job. I'll never see him again. I promise. He's dead to me".

"Louis you don't-"

"Yes. Yes I do. Niall I was such an idiot. I made the biggest mistake of my entire life and I almost lost you for it". I got up and closed the bedroom door, flicking the lock and walking back to the bed, pulling my t short and pants off, standing in front of Louis and pulling his t shirt off, straddling him. "Niall-" I cut him off, pressing my lips to his in a soft kiss. I tilted my head to the side, the kiss becoming more sloppy and desperate. I pushed him back on the bed and hovered over him, kissing down his jaw and creating a mark right on his weak spot just below his jaw. He moaned and tugged at my hair, rocking his hips up to meet mine and I let out an involuntary groan. He moaned and I clamped my hand over his mouth.

"We need to be quiet". I left open mouth kisses over his chest. He slid up to the head of the bed and I followed. He bit his bottom lip as he watched me crawl after him and I unbuckled his jeans, pulling them down his legs and throwing them away. He pulled me back up and crashed his lips to mine again, shoving his tongue through my lips as we explored the familiar surroundings. I ground our hips together, small groans escaping our lips from the friction.

"Niall. Please". Louis gasped as I pulled his constricting boxers down, letting the cool air hit his still growing erection. I held my fingers to his lips and he opened his mouth, closing around my fingers and swirling his tongue. I groaned lightly and he spread his legs open as wide as he could. I pushed a finger in, Louis fisting at my hair as I thrusted it in and out. I added another and another, curling them and making him gasp, clenching the sheets with his free hand that wasn't pulling at my hair. "Niall. Now". I slid my boxers down and spat on my hand, covering myself with my spit and pushing it at his pink hole. I pressed my lips to his as I started to push in.

"I love you". I pushed in fully and sat still, waiting for his ok. He nodded and I began to move, slowly increasing speed and the sound of slapping skin echoed through the quiet room along with our quiet moans and groans. I continued to kiss him, trying to prevent any screams from escaping either one of us and he scratched at my back.

"I love you too". He whispered against my lips, smiling slightly. "Ni, I-I'm close baby". He came out in spurts over our chests as I filled him and I collapsed on top of him.

"I love you". I whispered as I pulled out and lay beside him. He pulled me to lay on his chest.

"I love you".

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Heyyyy

There ya go, no one walked in.

Sorry it's short. I felt bad for not updating but I've just been really upset tonight and really wanted to cut so y'know.

I only have one exam left and it's on Tuesday hallelujah

There's something big coming that you won't expect and I'm not gonna tell you *laughs evily*

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