Don't Let Me Go (SEQUEL TO CMM)

Chapter 4

Niall's POV

"Why are you awake?"

"It's two in the morning! Why weren't you home!?"

"I had something I needed to do".

"And you didn't call or text me!?" I asked incredulously. "I've been worried sick! Max was so hard to put down because he kept crying for you! What if something happened to you!?"

"Niall I'm sorry".

"Where were you?" He sighed.

"I can't tell you".

"Are you serious!? I've had the worst day fucking possible and then I'm worried sick that something bad happened to you and you can't tell me!?"

"Niall I'm sorry but I really can't tell you".

"IM YOUR HUSBAND! You're never home anymore and you know I passed out from exhaustion and all day has been so stressful for me and fuck Louis! I can't do this anymore! I'm going mental! You're going behind my back!"

"Stop it Niall! I really can't tell you! I promised!"

"You're not supposed to keep things from me! You have kids Louis! You have a responsibility and you're not getting home until two am!?"

"Why are you making this such a big deal!?"

"WHY AM I MAKING THIS SUCH A BIG DEAL!? Louis! I have claustrophobia and I was crowded with fans today and trying to make sure Max was with me and trying to calm Tom down from the glass in his knee at the same time then had to go to the school to see Daniel was beat up for defending us! And then I'm waiting up for you because you still weren't home after midnight and you won't tell me anything!?"

"DONT YOU DARE START BLAMING ME ABOUT YOUR CLAUSTROPHOBIA! ITS NOT MY FAULT ALL THAT HAPPENED!"

"JESUS CHRIST LOUIS! I DIDNT SAY THAT! I just want to know where you we-"

"NIALL CAN YOU FUCKING SHUT UP!? I'm not telling you!" By now, tears were streaming down my face while I looked at Louis in a broken emotion.

"What did I do wrong?" My voice cracked.

"Dada?"

"Papa?" I looked to see Daniel, Max and Tom at the bottom of the stairs, staring at us in horror. I wiped my eyes.

"Daniel can you please take them upstairs? I'll be there in a minute". He nodded and I waited until they were completely in a room. "Don't come upstairs. You can sleep on the couch. I don't want to sleep with you tonight". I muttered, walking up the stairs to Daniel's room. They were sitting on his bed, tears running down Max and Tom's chubby cheeks while Daniel just looked confused. We've never really fought before and I know they're scared right now. I heard the front door slam and jumped, sitting on Daniel's bed with them, Tom climbing on my lap as I began to sob into Tom's feathered hair. Max cuddled into my side, trying his best to comfort me but it wasn't working.

"Dada it okay. We fix like...like my knee? We...we fix?" Tom kissed my cheek. "Better? Not hurt no more dada?" I smiled at him and wiped my eyes.

"Thank you Tommy".

"Dad?" I looked to Daniel. "Are you going to break up?"

"No! It was just a little fight. It's fine there's nothing to worry about okay?"

"Papa not come home forever dada?" Max asked, his bottom lip trembling.

"No Max. He's coming back it's okay".

"You've never fought before".

"I know Daniel. It's healthy to fight here and there. It's okay yeah?"

"That wasn't a little fight dad".

"Dada why you crying?"

"It's fine Max. I'm fine. It's really late come on let's go to sleep".

"Dada I sleep with you?"

"Me too dada!" I smiled slightly and nodded.

"Alright. Daniel you can stay home from school. I don't want you going". He nodded and the boys followed me out his room as I closed his door, walking over to my room. We all got in the bed, Tom beside me and Max beside him. They fell asleep quickly and I began to cry again.

"Dada? Dada no sad. Papa come home soon. Papa love you". Tom climbed on my chest and curled up. "Dada it okay. I mad at papa because papa make dada sad. Papa naughty. He say sorry to dada".

"It's okay Tommy".

"No! Papa bad".

"Shh Tommy go to sleep".

"Dada you sad papa gone". I began to sob as Tom cuddled more into my chest. "Dada how I fix?"

"Go to sleep Tommy". I whispered, pushing my fingers through his hair and he quickly drifted off. I softly cried myself to sleep.

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I woke to the smell of food and jumped up, the bed empty and panicking. I ran out the room and down the stairs. "Tom!? Max!?" I could hear chuckles from the kitchen and rushed in there to see Daniel cooking and Tom and Max sitting at the table.

"Morning dada!" Tom squealed. Daniel turned around and smiled slightly.

"Why didn't you wake me?" Daniel shrugged and gave Tom and Max their toast.

"You deserve some sleep".

"He didn't come back, did he?" Daniel shook his head, frowning. "I'll be back". I ran back upstairs and grabbed my phone, dialling his number. I rang and rang and rang and he still didn't answer. I just want him to come home. I just want my Lou. I don't even know what's going on anymore. I don't know how to handle this anymore. I'm so fucking tired and lonely. Why isn't he home anymore? Did he realise I'm not good enough for him? Has he found someone better than me? I picked up a photo of us and locked my bedroom door, throwing the frame at the wall in anger with the glass shattering. I screamed out, letting out what I've been holding in and threw more frames, pushing the chest of draws over and kicking it with as much force as possible. I felt two arms lock around me, my arms locked under theirs as I was pulled back. I broke down in their strong hold and sobbed, getting pulled over to sit on the bed.

"Shh Ni it's okay". Liam pulled me closer to him and rubbed my back soothingly.

"He left. He hasn't come back. I'm not good enough".

"Ni calm down".

"What are you doing here?"

"Daniel called. He sounded terrified now I know why. Niall what happened to make you go a wall?"

"Lou hasn't come home".

"You need to calm down Niall. He stayed at my house last night and he's at work right now. I talked to him and he's going to come straight home. He told me everything. He's so sorry Niall. He was crying to me about how terrible he felt. He was in shock when he saw you. Just wait until he gets here".

"Are the boys okay?"

"They're pretty shaken up but yeah, they're fine".

"I can't believe I let myself break".

"I'm just glad you didn't break in another way Niall. It's okay to let some steam off sometimes". I looked up to see Louis in the doorway. "I'll just be downstairs". Liam walked out and Louis say next to me, taking a deep breath.

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