Don't Let Me Go (SEQUEL TO CMM)

Chapter 18

Louis' POV

I've been so lost without Niall. I didn't know what to do with myself. I've been a complete mess. When I saw Niall I swear my heart just stopped. I tried to hold back my smile because I knew I hurt him. But seeing him just made me want to jump around with glee. I know I'm in my early thirties and that's just so gay but I am gay. So I'm allowed to. I've kept my body in great shape and so has Niall. I was practically awestruck when I saw him. Drawling with want and lust. But I got him. I've been getting off to the thought of his lips around me or his tight walls around me for three years now and I just got the real thing. God the feeling of his skin against mine was so amazing. I appreciated every moment as much as I could because I know what it's like to just lose everything.

"Lou?" I looked down to Niall and hummed. Right now, we're on the couch, him lying in between my legs with his back against my chest while I run my fingers through his wet hair. We had a shower and cleaned up. Yeah, there may have been a bit of kissing, okay a lot of kissing, and touching, and maybe a blowjob or two but who's counting? "What are you thinking about?" He turned around to face me and rested his chin on my chest. "Lou? You okay?"

"Yeah". I nodded but he didn't buy it.

"What's wrong?" I didn't want to tell him that I was hesitant and having the thought of changing my mind on coming home. I didn't want to upset him. I didn't want to let him down. But I can't handle the boys not knowing who I am. It will kill me. "Lou? What's wrong?" I shook my head and he let out a huff. "Please tell me? I can see it in your eyes, you're about to cry". I shook my head again and closed my eyes, trying to rid the tears. "Louis please".

"I'm scared". I opened my eyes to see him frowning.

"Wha-"

"I'm scared to go home. I'm scared that Tyler will see me and say stuff. I'm scared that the boys won't like me. I know they don't even know who I am. Why Ni? Why didn't you tell them about me as they grew up?" He sighed.

"I didn't want to tell them incase you'd never come home. I didn't want them to think I was crazy and keep saying 'he's your dad and he's coming home soon I promise' and then you never show up. I'm sorry Lou. But they'll love you!"

"I've missed you so much". I pulled him up and ran my thumb over his bottom lip. I can't get enough of his lips. It's like their my drug that I have to just keep taking between my lips. I pushed my lips to his, kissing him softly as he kissed back at the same pace. He fisted my Tshirt and I wrapped my arms around his torso, pulling him as close as possible. It began to get rushed and messy but we continued, heavy breathing as I kissed down his jawline, making my way to his sweet spot and licking over the fresh bruise I already created. He moaned lowly and moved his head back more, giving me more access to his neck. I kissed down to his collar bone and nibbled, creating another love bite. He pulled my head back and crashed our lips together again, shoving his tongue in my mouth. We danced a small tango, no fighting involved and I pulled his Tshirt off, him pulling mine off before our lips connected again. I sat up and Niall followed, straddling my lap and rolling his excitement against mine. I let out a groan as he continued his motions, pressing his lips to mine again in a sloppy wet kiss. "Shit Ni". I moaned out as he rolled his hips again. "I'm going to come in my pants if you continue". I panted out.

"Me too". He pressed our lips together again, rolling his hips. We came at the same time, moans and groans erupting in the quiet living room as he pressed his forehead against mine. "We're so horny".

"We are. I don't think my hand was enough the past three years". He chuckled and got up, pulling me with him and pulling me to the bathroom. He left the bathroom, coming back seconds later with more clothes. He kicked the bathroom door closed and pulled my pants down, pulling his down along with our boxers. He wet a cloth and wiped me down, wiping himself down and pulling me to his bare body. The feeling of his skin against mine is something I've missed the most. He ran his fingers down my spine, his forehead pressed against mine as he groped my ass. I gasped and he smirked. I repeated his actions on him and smirked as we just stared into each others eyes. "I really have missed you Ni".