Why Do You Bully Me? E.d~ G.d (Editing!!!)

Chapter 13 •Good bye•

I'm second guessing my decision of attempting suicide because who knows, maybe Ethan didn't mean what he said. But I wouldn't be surprised if he did. I'm on my way home when I came across something that angered me.

Ethan making out with some blonde girl. What the fuck! First he kissed me, saying how he was sorry. For once I actually thought he was sorry and meant what he said. But he already has a new girl feeling special. I'm not jealous, but the lies is what has me angry.

"You're unbelievable, Ethan." I say, making my presence known.

"Kat-" Ethan says getting cut off by the blonde.

"Ew, what the fuck is she doing here Ethan?" She pointed to me.

"Why don't you just go die already, bitch." she laughs. oh I am.

"Don't worry I will. Oh and don't feel too special. He'll have his new special girl by tomorrow." I say before storming off, ignoring Ethan call my name. Of course I had to run into someone.

"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't see you there." I mutter crying.

"Katherine?" I looked up to see a concerned Grayson.

"Why are you crying? ar-" I cut him off before he could finish his stupid question.

"Oh like you would care anyways. All of you just want me to die." I say turning around and walking away before he could say anything else.

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"Anybody home?!" I yell walking into the house. No response, thats good. No one will have to see anything. I'll be in peace soon enough. I can't live like this, I need to end it. It hurts.

I run up to my room crying my eyes out. I start to throw things across my room, shove everything off my desk. I find a paper and a pen and write.

'Hi dad, I know your wondering why your daughter would do this, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm fine. I'm in a better place. I love you with all my heart and I'll miss you dearly. I just couldn't take it anymore. Im sorry.

Ethan and Grayson I hope you're happy with what you did. You bullied an innocent girl into killing herself. You have no idea how much your words & actions have hurt me and now it's time for me to finally rest. once again I hope you're happy.

Emily, I never really had a girl bestfriend like you before and I'm happy that you didn't turn on me when we met that day. You're like a sister to me, I love you sis. Good bye em, see you soon.

Shawn, I honestly don't know what I would do without you. You've been there for me a lot and cared for me whenever no one else would. I'm sorry to cause you this pain, but I couldn't take my own anymore. If I didn't make this decision I dont know what i would've done. I'll see you soon my muffin man, I love you shawn forever and always.'

I grab my phone and start going live on younow. "Hey guys I know I must look like crap. Well I've had a horrible last day today. I uh, know your probably wondering why I said last day, well I'll tell you. I don't think me being here is a good idea because everyone seems to tell me that I'm not good enough to be living and that I should just kill myself. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but maybe I should do them a favour and grant their wish. So to all of you that have bullied me all these years. I hope you're happy. My name is Katherine Johnston if you didn't know. Or most of you know me as freak, whore and bitch. Have a nice life now that I'm leaving it. Good bye." I cry at the end, shutting off my phone.

I curl up in a ball and cry for 10 minutes before getting up and walking to the bathroom to look for anything. Pills, blades, bleach. I grab the pills and blade because I missed my daily cuts. So one last time wouldn't hurt.

I go in my room and look in the mirror and strip down to my bra and panties. I change into a tanktop and shorts. I grab my pills and dump them on the bed. I grab my blade and start cutting my legs, my stomach, my wrists, upper chest underneath my boobs.

"AHH!" I yell not caring if my neighbors hear me. I grab the pills and water bottle and sit in front of my mirror staring myself down. I get ready to down all the pills, but my phone rings. Shit, it's probably Shawn.

"Hello?" I sniffle.

"Katherine? Please tell me you didn't do anything. I called the ambulance, they're coming to your house right now. Dont do anything please. I'm on my way." Shawn cries on the other end.

"I'm sorry." I whisper.

"Katherine stay on." He begs into the phone.

"Good bye shawn, I-" I sob getting cut off.

"No, Katherine this is not good bye. You are gonna rethink this and you are going to jump into my arms the second I get there. We are going to get pizza after this. Don't you hang up on me." He pleads, trying to control his sobs through the phone.

"I love you mendes." I cry hanging up before he could say anything. I turn around and grab more pills, not caring about the amount. Handful after handful, I've lost count of how many pills. Why aren't they kicking it yet. Shawn's gonna he here any second.

"Katherine!" He yells coming up the stairs.

"No, no, no." I cry staring at the door.

"Katherine open up. Don't do this, please." He shouts and starts banging on the door. I start to cry harder and grab my blade once again, slicing my wrist twice more deeper. I grab the pills and go again."FUCK!" I scream. I start to feel dizzy, so I fall on my back with my blade in one hand and my pills in the other. "Everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay." I mutter over and over, starting to fade away. Shawn busts the door open and rushes to my side. He takes the blade and pills out of my hands. "Shit, katherine. You can't, w-why." He cries. "How much did you take Katherine?" He cries again.

I look at him and slowly start to doze off. "H-hold m-me." I mumble. He shakes his head in sadness before lifting my upper body onto his lap.

"I can't lose you." He sobs hugging me tighter. I slowly close my eyes. I can't stay awake, looking at him hurts me to see him in pain. I caused it. I need to leave so he can be happy without me.

"NO! KATHERINE! You need to stay awake. If not for me then please for your dad!" He shouts and starts shaking me. "KAT!" He shouts. I hear the ambulance and more peole come....then everything went black.

A/n
So.....how did you like the chapter?? Sorry for it being so long but I hope you enjoyed it next chapter will be shawn and the twins p.o.v before and during the incident......until next time byeeeeeeeeeee. Muwah😘

If it doesn't make sense in the up coming chapters. It's because I edited the previous ones and got tired to finish, but I will.