Why Do You Bully Me? E.d~ G.d (Editing!!!)

chapter 30 •come back•

"It's been 2 weeks and they are not getting better, they need to get better!" I flip a coffee table. "I need them here with me. I can't lose them!" I shout to no one in particular. Yep, I'm going crazy. I'm talking to the air. "WHY DOES THE WORLD HAVE TO SO FUCKED UP!!!" I punch the wall. "AGH!" I scream in frustration. I stop my rant once I hear my name. "Katherine? Can we talk? It's important" ethan tells me, looking a bit worried. I guess he saw my little breakdown. "Yeah, I'll meet you down there" I pant out.

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"So what is it?" I ask once I get downstairs. "Come outside" he gestures towards the door. We make our way outside. I wait for him to talk but he stays silent. "Well? What is it?" I ask irritated that he won't speak up.

"GrayandIaremovingtoL.A" he blurts out. Ok I don't think I heard it right because I heard 'I'm in ballet' and I don't think he said that. "Could you say that a bit slower"

"Gray and I are moving to L.A" I swear I think I heard my heart fall out of my ass. I stand there in shock, letting it sink in. I honestly don't know what to say, I want us to work but I feel like he used me. So me being me, I say the first thing that came to my mind. "So what, y-you used me? Did you just wait until I slept with you? Was this all a joke to you ethan?! Gosh how can I be so stupid" I mutter the last part.

His head shoots up when I say this. "What? No! Katherine that's not what I'm saying"

"Then tell me what exactly" I demand crossing my arms over my chest. He comes over to me, taking my hands in his. "Look I love you so much Katherine. I didn't use you, I would never do that to you. Gray and I are moving because we- actually gonna be kinda half living in L.A and half here, anyway- you know what nevermind, I'm not gonna tell you why because you'll still be a little pissed at us, more so me. But just know that I did NOT use you. I love you" he somewhat explained himself.

"I get it, I do. I may be half anti social, but I still watched every single one of you're videos. I get it, you wanna meet more of you're fans. I understand, hell if I were you guys I would want to, too. I'm just upset that you're leaving at the wrong time. You're leaving me when I need you the most, you and gray" I do watch their videos & I am proud of them. They are gonna make it big and I'll be there smiling and supporting along the way. "I just need maybe a day or two to get this anger out." I smile slightly. I kiss him before going inside, but I stop to tell him this. "And I love you too Ethan Grant Dolan."

When I get inside my phone is buzzing like crazy. "Mom?" I answer my phone worried. "Come to the hospital now.." She whispers on the other line before hanging up, not letting me respond.

Oh god, what if something is wrong? What if they- no! Katherine bernell johnston! You need to think positive.

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"Mom, what's wrong I came here as fast as I could. Are they ok? Can I go see them?" I stammer out. She doesn't say anything and my mind begins to think of bad things. I give a nervous smile. "Mom, you're not really helping right now. Mom! Please say something! Say they're okay!" I say, tears welling up on my eyes. "Give me hope. Tell me something that will distract my mind from what I'm thinking. Mom please." I beg, not wanting these thoughts to be true. But every second she doesn't speak, it makes this more real. The tears start to fall freely when I start to realize the truth. "They can't be dead. They're not. They can't be. I-I didn't get to say goodbye. What do I do now? This sint fair." I cry out, backing away from her. I grip my hair before my head starts shaking.

"No, I'll wake up and everything will be okay. This is a dream. I'll go home and everything will be okay." I mutter over my mom's cries for to stop.

"Honey. Please stop. Denial isn't good. You're in denial." She says with tear stained cheeks. I shake my head again. "No, no, no... STOP!! Stop saying I'm in denial! I'm not in denial! I know what's going on and none of this is okay! Knowing my brothers and sister are never coming home is not okay! Mom and dad your kids are never coming home. That is not okay! My- I- my brothers are..." I gasp in horror when it all sinks in. "Oh god. I-I have to get out of here. No, I need to say goodbye."

"Baby it's ok." My dad comes over to me, trying to calm me down.

"How can you say that?! My brothers and sister just died, your children dad! It's not ok!" I sob, falling on my knees.

They both come and sit down, we just sit the in the middle of the hallway crying. The pain hurts, so much. I want it to disappear. I don't want to be here. I need to say goodbye. I stand up and make my way to their room, ignoring my parents calling me.

I go over to my little brother first. "Hey there buddy, how is grandma and grandpa? Is it nice there? Gosh I'm gonna miss you so much, I miss you all so much. I know I haven't been the best big sister but just know that I'll always love you" I kiss his cold forhead, moving to my sister.

"Hey sweet, you shouldn't have been outside that day. You always were stubborn. I'm gonna miss seeing you. I love you, take care of baby boy for me will ya?" I kiss her forehead, moving over to my brother, Jace.

"Now listen here and listen good, you better take care of them you hear me? Be a good big brother and love them unconditionally. Oh god you don't know how hard this is for us. I don't know if I can take it with out all of you here with me. I love you so much Jace, all of you." I kiss his forhead then just cry.

"Why? Why did you have to leave me? All of you. Why did you have to go outside that day? Why did you have to be so stubborn? Why did you leave me? Please. I need you all here. Come back to me, to mom and dad" I look at the door and see my parents & the doctors along with some nurses. "We need to take them" the doctor tells me.

"No!"

"Mam we need to t-"

"I SAID NO!" I shout before punching him in the jaw. Some of their jaws drop.

"Katherine!" My mom shouts at me. "Mom don't let them take them, please. They'll hurt them." I beg her.

"We need to prepare for the funeral" I back away from her. It seems to real. I can't be here. I glare at the doctors. "Go to hell!" I snap, bolting out of the hospital. I take off to Ethan's house, he can help me with my pain. Him and gray.

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"Katherine what's wrong?" Grayson asks me as I stumble out of my truck. I can't speak it's like I can only scream right now, so that's what I do I scream letting my pain out. I fall onto the grass and pull him down next to me. "Their all gone. They didn't make it" I whisper.

"I'm so sorry kat" He rocks me back and forth.

I guess I must have zoned out because Ethan came out. "What gray?" He rushes over once he sees us. "Kat, are you ok? What happened?" He asks me. I shake my head not being able to speak. "They didn't make it" Grayson fills him in on the news.

"Oh my god... I'm so sorry. Come here" he pulls me towards his chest and we all just sit there, not saying a word. I cry while they both hug me.

My phone buzzes and gray answer it. "Hello? She's busy, can I take a message? What! Oh my.." he hangs up looking more sad then ever. "What is it?" I choke out, finally having enough strength to speak. He looks down at me and hold me tighter along with ethan. "It's you're parents" No....

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A/n
I cried while writing this but heads up, next chapter isn't happy either. So bring some tissues. Also........it's ending soon.