It's Finn's birthday. Everyone is out celebrating. I wish I could go, but Jacob won't let me. He says I've been going out too much. Plus, the cut on my forehead hasn't completely healed, and people might jump to conclusions. Finn came into the store a week or so ago, and he asked me about it. He doesn't understand. No one will. If they hear the truth they might accuse Jacob of hurting me. But Jacob would never do anything bad. He doesn't have any hate in his heart. He doesn't like to spread pain, only pleasure. When we make love, he's so passionately rough. He grips me tightly, and pins me to the bed with great force. It's the most intense experience. I am happy where I'm at. I don't understand why people keep trying to take me away from it.
The only downside to being with Jacob are the bad things going on in his life. His dad is getting worse. The doctors said the chemo isn't having any effect, and that his cancer is spreading. When Jacob told me, he was crying so hard. I held him closer than I ever had before. I wanted to take all his pain away. Now, we're waiting. With things going this badly for his dad, the end must be near. This going on has made me think of my brother. After his first attempt, I knew he would die by his own hand. I just didn't know when. I've been missing him lately. I want to visit him, but I don't want to seem selfish. Jacob and his dad are more important. Maybe after his dad passes, we can visit him and my brother together. For now, all we can do is sit down and let it happen.
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FanfictionLong time best friends Archie and Finn experience a peculiar conflict. (Trigger warning for drugs/alcohol (implied suicide discussion), mental illness, and discussion of cancer.)
