I've been thinking a lot about what Finn and I could've been if Jacob and him got along. Truth be told, I miss him. I miss just sitting around drinking with the gang and hanging around when we were alone at my house. With Finn and Jacob separately, everything is simple. Together, I feel like I watch every step I take. I have to tell myself "don't do this, don't say that" every day just to keep myself alive and standing. Sometimes I feel like that with Jacob alone, too. I feel like if I bring Finn up at all, I'm going to anger him. I know he doesn't like Finn, and never will. I've been thinking about this a lot, wondering what it meant for us in the future. What happens when Jacob and I get married, have kids? I want Finn to be there, by my side, being the godfather. I want him to be in my life, but he hurt Jacob. I just have to choose, and I choose Jacob. No matter how much it hurts to let Finn go, I have to accept that Jacob is the best for me.
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Fiksyen PeminatLong time best friends Archie and Finn experience a peculiar conflict. (Trigger warning for drugs/alcohol (implied suicide discussion), mental illness, and discussion of cancer.)
