Unsure

Chapter 5

"Sure." I smile more confidently than usual. So far alcohol seems to be working out pretty well for me, except for some of its strange effects such as me laughing at every single thing that happens.

I pour myself another drink before following Zayn outside the front of the house. He leans against the wall and gestures for me to stand next to him before lighting up a cigarette. I usually hate smokers but it seems somewhat attractive on Zayn. 

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" I take a sip of my fourth drink of the night. Or was it my fifth? Sixth maybe?

"I wanted to ask you something" he interrupts my thoughts before taking a toke of his cigarette.

"Go ahead" I smile. He blows out a puff of smoke and I breathe in the thick tobacco causing me to cough.

"Sorry. Are you okay?" He asks worriedly. I nod and he continues. "Okay. Well I know it sounds crazy, but you seem really cool, and I suppose I kind of like you. So I was wondering if you wanted to go out tomorrow? With me?" What?

I never even considered Zayn would actually like me. Maybe it's only a little but I never expected it. I thought the kiss yesterday was out of sympathy and to comfort me but nothing more. 

"Yeah, cool." My buzzing and alcohol-influenced mind responds before my brain can even think about it. I giggle and stumble over a rock and Zayn quickly puts his cigarette on the wall and catches me before I hit the ground.

"Maybe I should ask you when you're sober?" he chuckles as I trace across his lips with my finger, giggling like a high school girl. What the hell am I doing?

I laugh at him as he slowly pulls my hand down with his from his face but doesn't let go of it.

"I know it's crazy, but I can't stop thinking about you Bella. And I don't know why." The words coming from his perfect lips make me smile as I feel more of the vodka going to my head, making me feel more relaxed and happy than I have ever felt before.

He takes one last puff of his cigarette before putting it out and stroking his thumb across my cheek. The warmth of his thumb and the light scent of tobacco make me shiver as he leans down and whispers into my ear. "If you hadn't drank so much tonight, I would be kissing you so hard right now". He pulls away from me and removes his warm thumb from my face, before awkwardly smiling at me with a warm and beautiful smile.

...

For the rest of the night I continue drinking, continue taking shots with random strangers I've never met before and as the night continues my vision becomes more blury, my mind less aware of my actions.

I decide to go to the bathroom to try and sober up a bit, but as I stand up the alcohol rushes to my head and I fall over. I open my eyes to see a blur of people that I think I make out to be Zayn and Niall.

Zayn's Point Of View:

I run over to Bella who is lying on the floor, practically paraletic. How did she drink so much without anyone else realizing? Has she ever even had alcohol before?

"She's wasted" Niall states the obvious. "Does someone wanna take her home? She needs to sleep".

"I will", I offer. I know I wouldn't want anyone else to. Bella lays still staring at Niall and I, looking slightly confused and if I'm honest it's scaring me a little. I've never seen a girl so drunk before. I give Niall my keys and tell him to drive my car outside the front of the house. I tell Justin to stay with her and make sure she's okay before going to find her friend. Sky, was it?

I find Sky kissing Chaz and she seems pretty smashed herself.

"Bella's really drunk" I inform her, "I'm going to take her back to your dorm. Do you want a lift home?"

"She's staying at mine" Chaz slurs. Sky nods and continues kissing Chaz. I decide to leave them as in their drunken state they're no use.

I carry Bella out to my car where Niall is waiting in the drivers' seat. I thank him and he nods before going back to enjoy the party. I lay Bella in the back of my car and drive slowly back to the University, checking every now and again that she's still okay.

...

I lay Bella in her bed on her side and give her a bottle of water to drink. 

"Thank you" she mumbles and I nod. 

I sit by her until she falls asleep and watch her perfect features as she sleeps, perfect even when she's in this state. I decide I can't leave her alone like this so sleep next to her on the floor. I fall asleep dreaming of small beautiful fingers gently tracing my lips.