Unsure

Chapter 46

Bella's POV:

I climb out of Justin's bed and rush to my feet, Justin anxiously sitting up from hearing the news. 

"Can we both go?" Justin asks, turning himself on the bed to get up. The nurse sighs and raises her eyebrows. 

"I'm not sure it's a good idea for you to be out of bed." She sighs gesturing to Justin, "But considering the situation, I'll allow it. Let me just get you a chair." She momentarily leaves us before returning with a wheelchair for Justin, Justin carefully and painfully standing and sitting in it before the three of us make our way to Zayn's hospital room. 

As we make our way there I feel my heart beat rapidly and loudly, every single beat clearly heard as I walk down the narrow hallway. I feel sick as we approach the room, and find myself taking in a deep breath before turning the door handle. 

As I walk in I screw my eyes shut at the sight in front of me. Zayn, unconscious and badly bruised and cut. He has bandages on his head and various parts of his body, masses of wires attatched to him. He breathes slowly and heavily, his chest moving up and down in large motions. I take a deep breath once again before opening my eyes and walking over to him, hesitantly sitting beside him. 

Justin sits down on the chair beside me and interwinds his hand in mine, looking worriedly into my eyes. 

"He'll be okay." He reassures me but I can't help but sense that doubt in his voice. His feeling that maybe Zayn won't be okay, which is the only thought that seems to circle in my mind. I squeeze Justin's hand tightly and we both sit and look motionlessly at Zayn, who continues to remain unconscious.

...

I wake up, still sat in the chair next to Zayn. I must have drifted off whilst praying and waiting for him to wake up. I check if he's awake but he remains unconscious. I decide to talk to him like the nurse suggested earlier, she said it could work. Justin went back to his ward a couple of hours ago but I chose to stay here. Zayn needs someone here when he wakes. And I really hope that it's soon. 

Zayn's POV:

Everything is still dark. Even though I'm screaming out that I'm here and I can hear everyone, they don't seem to hear me. I can't work out if this is real or just some sort of twisted nightmare. But either way, I want it to end soon. Right now I hear nothing but random movements and the beeping of some sort of machine. I know there is someone here with me but I have no idea who. I just want to wake up. 

I feel a vague touch on my hand. Someone is holding it. They take a deep breath before speaking. 

"Uh, so I don't really know if this will work.. but here goes." The familiar voice speaks and it takes me seconds to realize it's Bella. Bella is here with me, speaking to me.

"I don't know if you can hear me." She continues, "And you probably can't. But please wake up Zayn. I love you too much to lose you. I know I'm with Justin and I love Justin so much but I'm also in love with you. The day I met you I felt this feeling in my stomach. This rush of nerves, anxiety, and I still get it right now when I'm speaking to you. It's so hard for me to be with Justin when I love you even though I love him so much I can't seem to get over you. That is what I wanted to tell you before the plane crashed, before you dropped your phone and I hate myself so much because I know it's my fault your lying here. It's all my fault." She sobs and I want nothing more than to wake up and hug her, protect her.

I had no idea she felt this way about me; felt the same way I do about her. It all makes sense now why I'm lying here. Her telling me helped me to remember just before the crash now and if I could right now I would smack myself so hard for being the fucking idiot I am and unbuckling my seatbelt.