Unsure

Chapter 17

I start to cry and the nurse walks over to me, rubbing my back gently with her hand.

"It will be okay." she assures me sympathetically. I try to pull myself together as I sit up, wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"Do you want me to come back later?" The nurse asks considerately, "Or are you okay if I ask you a few questions now? We're just trying to figure out what it could be that caused you to lose the baby."

"No, now is fine. Thank you." I swallow, looking up at the nurse.

"Have you consumed any alcohol in the past two weeks?" She asks me with a serious expression on my face. Oh god, it was the alcohol. I really did kill the baby.

"Yes" I sigh, my head dropping. "There's been a couple of parties, I drank alcohol. A lot of it.

The nurse smiles a sympathetic smile, and nods her head understandingly. "Okay. That's all I need to know." She takes the papers and writes something down before leaving me in my section.

I can't believe I was pregnant, and I killed it. I was so stupid. I should have told my mom as soon as I had slept with that guy. She would have known exactly what to do. But instead, I listened to Sky. Carefree and self-centered Sky. I feel sick at the thought of her name.

Interrupting me from my thoughts, both Justin and Zayn return to my section and sit either side of me. Zayn takes my hand in his before speaking.

"I have to go, I'm sorry." he seems disappointed. "I have to go back to Bradford for a few days, there's some issues at home and my family need me. Will you be okay?"

I nod and lean over to kiss his cheek. "Thank you", I whisper into his ear. "For everything."

He stands up and says goodbye to both of us before leaving me alone in my section with Justin.

I look to Justin and find his attractive brown eyes piercing into mine. 

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asks. Seriousness is the only emotion in his voice and eyes. I have never seen a different side to his normal flirty self.

I shake my head. "Not now" I answer, "We can talk about it later." I lean my head back into my pillow and close my eyes. I feel Justin's hand squeeze mine as I drift into a deep and finally rested sleep.

...

I'm woken by the sound of shouting outside my section. I sit up and hear Justin, anger clear in his tone.

"She doesn't want to see you." He says through his teeth.

"Riley told me what he said to her. I need to see her okay?!" I hear a familar girl's voice scream back at him. 

Sky.

I stand from my bed and feel a harsh pain rush to my stomach. I hold my stomach tightly before hobling towards the curtain and drawing it back with my free hand.

"Bella" Sky and Justin say in unison, Sky with relief in her voice and Justin with worry in his.

"I need to talk to you Bella." Sky pleads and I scowl at her.

"What could you possibly have to say?" I ask weakly. Getting up was clearly a bad idea when in my condition.

"What Riley said. It's true, I'm his cousin. But I'm sorry, okay? I still want to be frien-"

"No." I cut her off. "Just go. I don't want anything to do with you!" I scream, draining any strength I have left in me. She walks towards me pleadingly but Justin puts his hand in front of her to stop her.

"You heard her," he glares. "Go."

She sighs and her head sinks before she turns and walks away.

"You shouldn't be out of bed." Justin scolds me concernedly. "You need to rest."

He helps me back to my bed before taking my hand in his.

"You can stay in Zayn and I's dorm. He's not here for a few days anyway. You can sleep in his bed." He comforts me, smiling a nervous smile. 

I nod and thank him and we talk for hours, both of us ending up falling asleep.

...

I wake up and check the time, rubbing my eyes sleepily. 9am? I turn to see Justin sleeping uncomfortably next to me. He must have stayed with me all night.

I gently shake his shoulder.

"Justin?" I whisper. "It's morning."

"I know" Justin yawns, an amused smirk spread across his face. He stretches his arms and legs out as the familiar nurse from yesterday walks into our section.

"You're still here?" she asks surprised. "I told you to leave last night." She scolds him, but laughs it off with a knowing smile.

"You're free to go" she smiles at me. I sigh a sigh of relief and smile back at her.

"Thank you so much for everything" I tell her, as Justin begins to collect my things.

...

After a long drive back to the University from the hospital, we get back to Justin and Zayn's dorm. I take a shower straight away, taking advantage of their en-suite bathroom that I haven't had the privileges of since I got here.

I chuck on one of Justin's t shirts and my sweatpants before leaving the bathroom and walking back into the dorm. 

I see Justin, sat on the end of his bed, picking at notes on his guitar. I smile at how adorable he looks and he stops as he notices me, embarrassment flashing in his eyes.

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